i don’t usually write things like this…
“babe where are you going?” I watched as she flung a sweatshirt over her head and searched through her purse.
“the pool, why?” she pulled the sleeves down over her hands as she looked over at me.
“nothing. Just wondering” I smirked up at her.
“I’ll be back in a few, okay?”
“yeah that’s fine, have fun cutie”
She swung the hotel room door open and ashton was standing there with his fist in the air about to knock. y/n stepped aside letting him in. Ashton sat himself down next to me on the couch and stole one of my pillows.
“where are you going looking like that y/n?” ashton chuckled.
y/n rested her hand on the door handle with a confused look on her face, “the pool?” raising her voice on the last syllable making it sound more like a question.
“like that?” he snorted
“piss of man” I nudged ashton’s leg with my foot to get him to stop.
y/n tilted her head slighty to the side, something she often did right before she felt like crying.
“what are you-“
“babe, you’re okay. Go have fun at the pool” I tried to encourage her.
“but…what’s wrong with my outfit?” her brows furrowing together
I threw a stern look at ashton, begging him not to answer but he didn’t even glance up at me. He grabbed the chip bowl and grabbed a mouthful of chips, stuffing his face.
“you could go to the north pole like that” he eyed her up and down.
“fuck you ashton” she half-heartedly yelled and ran out of the room, slamming the door behind her.
“try being a little more sensitive next time, you douche”
“whatever dude”
“get the fuck out” I tried my best not to get angry but how could I keep it in? y/n was my girlfriend and she means the world to me. I hate it when others try to put her down because in my eyes she’s perfect.
Ashton groaned and got up, leaving the room to go find calum or luke to play video games with.
I wasn’t too sure where she would have gone but I had to find her. She had always had self-esteem issues and was always so insecure about her weight. That’s why she chose to wear baggy sweatpants and a sweatshirt to go to the pool.
I left the room and walked down the long monotonous hallway and turned the corner just to find y/n curled up in the little alcove. Her legs were pulled up into her chest and her head buried into her knees. Her long hair was sprawled out over her legs so I couldn’t see her face.
The soft sobs gave me the hint that she was crying.
“sweetheart”
She didn’t budge. She clung tighter to her legs. I stood over her, thinking of how small she looked all curled up in the corner. She looked so vulnerable. All I wanted was to protect her.
I sat down next to her and wrapped my long arms around her shoulders, leaning her into me. She tucked her head into my chest and cried. I soothed her hair down with my hand, softly whispering to her, “please don’t cry y/n. you’re okay. I’m right here. Don’t listen to him. You’re perfect and I love you.”
“I’m so ugly and fat” she mumbled into my shirt
“no you aren’t y/n! you are the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen in the entire world.”
She let out a deep sigh in frustration, not believing a word I said.
“look at me babe” I pulled her head away from my chest. Her cheeks were a slight tint of red and I could see the tear streaks going down her face. I tried wiping the wetness away with the pads of my thumbs. Then I brushed some strands of hair behind her ear.
“I have never seen anyone as perfect as you in my life. I love you y/n. I love your cute little face, I love how you always smell like vanilla, I love when you scrunch up your nose when you laugh really hard, I love the way your eyes sparkle when we’re watching your favorite movie. I really love your body too. You’re so huggable.”
“that’s only what you think. Everyone else thinks I’m worthless and stupid”
“stop that. Why the fuck should it matter what anyone else thinks? Its just you and me babe. I love you and I think you’re beautiful. That’s all we need”
“I need a hug”
“c’mere darling”
I stood up, holding my hands out to help her up. She happily took my hands and scooted up, wrapping her arms around my torso. She went on her tiptoes and rested her chin on my shoulder. My hands found their way under her heavy sweater to her back and rubbed small circles. Her skin was so soft and I couldn’t get enough.
“I love you y/n”
“I love you too mikey”
I turned my head and kissed the side of her face. I peppered kisses all over her face, along her cheeks and on her chin, up to her forehead. One last kiss was placed on the tip of her nose and she let out a soft giggle. It was so adorable the way she laughed like that.
I was the first to pull away but I kept my hands locked on hers. Slowly, I walked her back to our room. As I slide the card into the lock I looked up at her. Her hair was a little disheveled, but her eyes were finally dry. And let me tell you, she looked as beautiful as ever. I was lost in a daze staring at her beauty.
“micheal…the door”
“oh right, sorry haha”
I kicked the door open and led her in first, like a gentleman. y/n stepped inside and sat on the edge of the large bed.
I opened my mouth in attempt to give her some comforting words as I locked the door.
“can we-“ it was as if the voice was caught in her throat, unable to form any words and finish the sentence.
“what would you like baby girl?”
“love” she trailed off, looking down at her feet. Nothing more was said because I knew exactly what she wanted and what she needed.
She stood up and I joined her by the end of the bed. I softly placed my hands on her shoulders, pulling her in for a sweet kiss. My tongue traced along her mouth attempting to part it but she didn’t let me in.
“babe” I groaned, moving my hands down to her hips
“nuh uh” she shook her head from side to side
“you’re going to have to let me in eventually”
She giggled and backing up onto the bed. I soon followed, hovering over top of her. Her hands tugged at the bottom of my shirt and tried pulling it up over my head for me but I put my hand over hers, stopping her.
“you first” I kissed her passionately. I guided her upper body so she was now sitting upright and I pulled the sweater up over her head. Fortunately her shirt stuck with it and came off too. Her hands immediately came in front of her chest to cover up her body and stomach. I pulled her hands away “I need to see all of your beauty y/n.” smiling up at her. Reluctantly she loosened her grip.
I left open mouth kisses on her front, starting at her shoulders and making my way down her stomach.
“you’re the prettiest girl I’ve ever laid eyes on y/n.”
“I don’t want to be with anyone else but you”
I reached behind her and unclasped her bra, flying it across the room. I held one of her boobs in my hand and massaged it as gentle as I could, making her moan in response. I attached my lips around one of her nipples and sucked on it for a bit, letting it harden in my mouth.
Once I was satisfied with the work I had done, I looked up at her, “please don’t ever feel like you aren’t enough. I need you y/n”
you’re insecurreeee, don’t know what forrrr
