We're Gonna Try Something New Today (Fransykes)

On My Own

A/N: IM SO SORRY. It took me so long to come up with something good.... please dont hate me and enjoy!!

*Oli's POV*

Josh went home a little while later because his mother would've gotten angry if he hadn't. I was bored out of my mind and I knew my parents wouldn't be home for a couple hours. I had nothing to do so I went upstairs and laid down. I'm almost always tired even though I sleep all the time.

Honestly, when I'm with Josh I don't pay attention to how tired I am. Josh keeps me from worrying and thinking about everything.

I was so tired. I barely slept. I laid in bed thinking about Josh. I really love him. He's helped me get better and he doesn't even know it. By spending so much time with him I spend less time smoking and taking pills. I still do it sometimes but I owe so much to him. I love him so much.

I dont know why, but had a bad feeling about today. And boy, I was in for a surprise. I slowly dragged myself out of bed. I showered and got dressed and I laid down on my bedroom floor. I dont know why. I felt kind of out of it today. Like I wasn't awake. Like nothing was real. Like everything was a dream.

I looked at the clock and there was ten minutes until I had to leave. I got up anyway and started walking towards school. A few blocks away from school, I sat down on the curb and thought. It started raining right when I sat down. My. Fucking. Luck.

I thought about him again. I couldn't stop. It hurt thinking about how I couldn't protect him from everything.

It was pouring now and I could hear thunder gently rolling through the sky. I smiled slightly remembering how Josh was afraid of thunderstorms.

I walked the rest of the way to school and went to my first class. Normally Josh is there before me. Maybe he stayed home because he didn't want to face the thunderstorm? No. His mom would make him go. Maybe he's sick? Yeah, thats probably it.

I pulled out my phone.

To Josh:

Josh are you okay?

I waited. And waited. Then I got even more worried. I paid no attention to the teacher. I sat in my seat looking out the window, waiting.

My phone started to ring. It was Josh. Anxiety coursed through my body. Josh would've texted me. Something is wrong. I can feel it.

I ran out class and answered it.

"Hello?" I was nervous to the point where I was going to puke.

"Is this Mr. Oliver?" Shit. I knew it.