I sit in the dark corner of my room,
All alone with my thoughts.
That's when it starts,
All the flashbacks,and memories.
Of a better past, a better life,
Happy moments.
I smile at thought of each memory,
I smile at each good time all of us had.
But then I get that pain in my chest,
My throat goes dry.
And I begin to sob uncontrollably,
I can't stop the tears.
All the good memories fade...
I can only think of the bad ones we had...
All the bad memories I created,
The punishments,
the yelling...
beating, scars.
That's when it starts again.
The voices that haunt me.
"It's your fault.."
They whisper slowly.
"It's your fault..
It was all your doing.
You created all the problems"
"Stop.."
"Please..stop"
I beg the voices,
But they get louder.
"It was all because of you.!"
"You made this all happen!"
"You created this mess!"
"YOUR the reason this all happened! It was YOU!"
I try to block the voices...
but their too loud.
"It was all your fault!!!"
"Your so pathetic!"
"I'm sorry.."
I whisper
"I'm sorry...
I didn't mean too.."
"Please I'm sorry"
I try to calm down..
but it gets worse
"YOUR THE REASON THE FAMILY WENT TO HELL!!"
"YOUR THE REASON MOM ISN'T HERE"
"YOUR THE REASON SHE HAD TO LEAVE!
"YOUR THE REASON YOUR BROTHER AND SISTER SUFFER SO DAMN MUCH!!!!"
"I'm sorry.."
I whimper
"Your so pathetic,
Crying on the floor..."
"With a razor on your hand,
And blood on your wrist."
"Can you be more pathetic?"
"Just die.."
Kill yourself"
"You don't deserve to live"
"Cut deeper."
"Just die"
The voices stop..
The leave with those last two word.
Those two words that always,
Sink in.
"Just die"
The voices say..
