I just want to end it all .

Depression.

I struggle with depression and life in general . When my dad left he took my heart with him . He was my other half, and was the only reason I wanted to live . When he cheated on my mom , he didn't only hurt her , he hurt me .

I lost myself , I really did . He loved me like no ever did .

He told me stay strong no matter what and to keep my grades up , don't listen to other people's opinions because mines only matters . Every day I think about that day when my mom , sister and I walked in on him with another woman . I was lost for words . I just ran and ran until I couldn't run anymore because he said he would never hurt me but he didn't realize that he did but now he has a family . 5 month old girl . She's Beautiful . My mom always blames it on me for why he cheated . I will never understand maybe he just left , maybe she was different , maybe he wanted a new family .