I just want to end it all .

Meet My Friend .

Meet my friend .

I got her from a pink pencil sharpener.

She is beautiful , she is sharp , she is special to me in every way . She has always been there for me 24/7. I call her razzy . My Razor Blade . I use her a lot when I'm angry or crying. It Started in high school my first year . Rumors . Rumors they ruined my life " Whore" "Slut" "Stupid " "Ugly " " Just kill yourself your trash " Thats when I had no where to turn too . I started cutting . It was a relief . The blood oozing down my arms . My pain flowing out of me . Sometimes I want to OD but I'm not strong enough to take the pills because what if I fail ? I'll have to live with the judgment of my mom . I can't leave a 11 year old with such a crook , should who turn out like her 16 year old depressed sister . Nobody wants to be like me . A fucking weirdo that's worthless .