One Good Egg

Something lost

Never underestimate the feeling of comfort. The feeling of tradition, peace and friendship. I think back to when I had those feelings, I don't smile, i'm not reminiscing on good times that didn't turn sour.

Discomfort...that's what I feel now. Funny how positive and cheerful a word is until you add two to three words in front of it and it all goes to hell.

The school bus pulls up in front of me and I get in. Mum is too busy to drop me off today. 
I can hear their whispers all around me. I've never taken the bus before now, so it's a very strange sight. 
I used to ride shotgun in her car but not anymore. 

I always thought all I needed was one good egg and a basket, nevermind the saying, "don't put all your eggs in one basket".
I suck it up. Who needs an egg anyway, it's not the only source of protein.
I try to clear my thoughts because I know I'm going too far from reality.
The bus moves. I remember a new family just moved in next to my house and turn to whisper in her ears. She isn't there, she hasn't been there for a month now.

I see her in the halls, with her new friends. The urge to go talk to her is strong but not as strong as the feeling of humiliation. I turn away hoping she doesn't see me. Things have changed, I'm the only pea in the pod now. I don't go to class immediately. I make a stop at the restroom. 

I don't seem to be the only one in need of a break. Some other lonely soul is in here. She looks up and I recognize her from one of my classes. She doesn't smile, neither do I. I take a few breathers and go off to class.

The next morning I don't bother asking mum for a ride. 
I step into the bus and immediately walk to an empty seat. I turn to discreetly look around me and catch the eyes of restroom girl. We stare at each other and I catch a tilt of the corner of her lips before I look away. I smile to myself. 

It's lunch time but I don't feel like being in a crowd, so I find myself in the library. 
As I step in, I notice the librarian do a double take. I don't blame her, I've never stepped in here before. I quickly find a corner, away from prying eyes. 
I try to catch up on my assignments while munching on an apple. 

It doesn't take long before I let out a big yawn, books always did put me in sleep mode. 
I hear a chuckle and look around, hoping I haven't made a fool of myself. Alas! I see restroom girl staring at me. This time she gives me a full blown smile and walks away.