There's only one day left until my suspension is over, I have done nothing but cry since Dustin left on Friday. Saturday and Sunday I just lounged around in a pair of baggy clothes and ate a lot of ice cream, I know it's pitiful right. I wonder if he actually listened to me, and went out and got a girlfriend who was better than I'll ever be. I hope he did, he deserves to be happy, he deserves to have a girl love him and treat him right. I planned on continuing the rest of my suspension in my bed watching chick flicks when the doorbell rang through the house. I groaned crawling out of bed and walking down stairs opening the door to see the one person I didn't want to see right now or ever for that matter.
"Dustin wha..."
He cut me off.
"No you don't get to talk this time you did enough of that on Friday now your going to shut your fucking mouth and listen to what the fuck I have to say and if you don't like it to fucking bad deal with it."
I nodded my head knowing I owe him that much.
"I came here Friday because I had something I wanted to say to you that was important because I actually give a fuck about you. I know I haven't known you for very long and maybe it's just a crush, but I know for a fact that I've never felt like this about anyone in my whole fucking existence. I'm falling in love with you Erica, every time I touch you I get sparks, and shivers all over my body that I can't control worth a fuck. When I'm with you I never want to be without you, and when I'm away from you I don't want to be anywhere but with you. My biggest secret is falling for a girl that I have no fucking chance with what so ever..."
He began walking towards me and when he reached me his hand went up to my face. He moved his thumb along my cheek as he wiped away the fallen tears. He kept his hand there as he leaned his forehead against mine before he continued.
"My biggest secret is the way I feel about you."
He whispered to me, as more tears traveled down my face and I closed my eyes.
"Please say something Erica."
I opened eyes and looked into his vibrant grey ones.
"I can't."
His hand fell from my face, and I put my face in my hands, before looking back up at him.
"I want to, Dustin, I really do, I've regretted everything I said to you on Friday because the truth is I'm falling for you too. I know I'll only hurt you please understand, I pushed you away so I wouldn't hurt you."
He walked back to me, placing his hands on my shoulders.
"Being with you is worth every pain I could ever feel, whether it's because of you or not."
I looked at him and he leaned down, I felt his lips brushed against mine, his arms wrapped around my waist and mine around his neck. He finally connected our lips and sparks exploded between us, there was no stopping them, shivers traveled up and down my back. He pulled me closer to him wanting to eliminate all space between us, when we pulled away he leaned his forehead against mine, as we tried to catch our breath.
"Will you go out with me tonight?"
I looked up at him and smiled.
"As long as it's not one of those shitty fucking high school parties then yes, I would love to."
He laughed.
"Alright no parties, how about dinner and a movie?"
"Sounds perfect to me."
He nodded his head, I pulled away from him a little.
"You better go get ready, I have to shower and everything before we go."
