I just want to end it all .

School Life .

I wake up every morning at 4 am . I take a shower , and fix my hair , I don't wear makeup because that is " slutty " to my mom .

I put on my clothes, I don't have that many designer clothes because apparently we can't afford any which we can she doesn't buy me any. I don't understand how you could do your own children like that . Some people don't need children . Sometimes I have wonder why she doesn't love me .

I walk to school every day by myself along with the guys looking for young girls . Times I just want to get in the car and drive away and never come back . Not like anybody would care besides I'm just another victim of the world .

I finally walked up to my school . Everyone stared . I walk so stiffly because I was afraid . As I walked past every one was whispering .Someone snickered and her friends along with her . I held my head down but then I bumped into my biggest crush James the biggest jock in school.

Omg the embrassment. " I'm sorry " and i start walking faster but he grabs my arm " wait where are you going " I looked confused " Me ? " He said " yea " *rubbing my shoulder" He asks " you want to come to my house tonight "

I look him in the eyes " stop playing "

He says " I'm not , be here ". And he walks away .

I smile too myself " omg "

Meanwhile James is talking to his friends they ask " did you do it yet " he replies " yes " and laughs . They all laugh and high five each other ." its going to be a fun night .

     Author's Note : So how am I doing ? I want to know lol . The Next Chapter is going to be interesting and sexual . I'm excited .