dear esther, love zade

chapter 2

diary entry #2

dear diary,
hey it's me, zade again- you already knew that. today was a hard day. well today i finally figured out my true feelings for esther. esther white. she's just so so perfect. her white teeth, bumpy nose, freckley textured skin. it all just makes me want to die. but i can't tell her- that's the problem. i'm pretty sure she has feelings for someone else in my math class. dorian james. the mafia kid, that's what everyone call them. they are so frustrating with their perfectly places hair and their olive toned skin and muscles. whatever it doesn't matter. i will never compare to them in any way and it's so annoying. but i have a plan... i'm gonna make esther jealous or try to at least. you see, one of her ex friends started talking to me and at first i ignored it but maybe this is my way to getting esthers attention. the girl is called clara by the way. clara wakirya. oh and also my big brother atlas decide to join a new gang/group. not sure what kind but he's getting paid so it's all good. today may have been confusing but tonight is going to be so fun. i got invited to a party. i know. me of all people. i got chosen to come. although the hosts are a bunch of complete dickheads who think it's funny to drink their feelings away. my mum would KILL me if i turned into that especially after what happened with andrew ( my dad). that's besides the point. the point is i need to find an outfit, a date and an excuse to go.

yours truly?
                     -zade