a kiss on the wrist

Chapter 35- raising voices

"How are you feeling baby?" I asked, running my finger from his forehead down his face and along his jaw line. "Better than last night," he looked up at me. "Are you ready to tell me what's wrong?" I bit my lips slightly and placed my finger under his chin to bring his face up to mine. I gave him a small peck. He didn't say anything. "Whenever you're ready, i would love to talk about this with you, i mean you were crying and you said you were fine last night, but obviously you weren't, but i just don't understand why you don't want to talk about this with me, i love you, and i thought we could talk about anything with each other," i told him. I was a little upset because he chose not to tell me anything. I don't know what it going on, or why he was crying and it really upsets me.

"Niall, whatever it is, please tell me when you're ready ok, i don't like seeing you hurt and sad, it breaks my heart because i want to help you, but i don't know what i can do," i ran my fingers through my hair and sat up. Niall followed my actions and turned to directly face me. I was frustrated. "Darling, I'm really glad that you are here for me and that you want to help me with this, but me not telling you what it is, is nothing. Trust me, you can't help me, and i just don't want you to worry about it, i don't want to tell you because i myself don't want to worry about it, so let's just drop it and enjoy each other's company ok angel?" He said, grabbing my hands and kissing them.

I let out a breath and looked at him. "I am still going to worry about it niall, but if you don't want to talk about it, i won't make you," i sighed and looked away. I was a little mad at the moment and i knew niall could tell, but we are in a relationship, that means we are open to one another and we help each other. How am i supposed to do that when i don't know what to help with, or how i can help? I was chewing on my cheek and looking anywhere except at niall.

"Robin," he tried to catch my attention. "Mhm"
"I love you" he kissed my cheek and left the bed, heading strait to the bathroom.
"I love you too" i whispered to myself and decided to go get something to eat. I wandered down the stairs and strolled into the kitchen. The cold tile making contact with my skin. Deciding i was going to have a plum, i opened the fridge and dug around the drawer until i found one and made my way back upstairs to my room this time. I needed a shower, i needed some alone time. I just needed some space. I love niall, but I've been cooped up with him all the time ever since i got out of the hospital.

after i was showered and dressed, i went into niall's room. "Hey I'm going to go on a jog, if you need me, call me or something," i smiled, putting my arms around his neck and leaning up to kiss him. "Ok, be safe i love you" he placed his forehead on mine. "I love you, and i will" i pecked him one last time and made my way out.

"One more mile" i told myself as i ran further and further from home. I was hopelessly lost. I don't usually exercise, I'm lazy don't judge me, but when i do, i either run a lot, or lift a fork. That's exercise right? Anyways, i was about eight miles away from home according to my navigation which i finally decided to pull out after about thirty minutes of trying to find my way back home.

"Hey harry, mind if i drop by?" I asked him through the phone. "Yeah i would love to see you, just let me clean up!" He chirped. "Don't worry about it I'm like five miles from your house" i laughed. "Really? Where are you?" He asked.

"I'm over here on cuthbert, wait no it says" i paused looking at the street sign. "Yeah cuthbert" i nodded. "Stay there, I'll come get you" he said before hanging up. I laughed and decide to text niall.

Me: how is everything? Are you ok?
Nialler: everything is fine, just chilling out, cleaning up a bit, hows the jog going sweets?

I was about to reply, telling him that i was going to harrys, but my phone died before i could. "Hey there" i heard his English accent ring. "Hey there" i giggled, approaching his car. "How much for a visit sweet cheeks?" He laughed as i opened the door. "For you, three thousand" i nodded as i buckled up. "Damn," he laughed.