City full of Empty People

15

𝙹𝙰𝚂𝚈𝚁𝙰 𝙱𝙰𝙽𝙺𝚂

I acted like it wasn't a big deal, when really it was breaking my heart.

Hearing him say these words fucking hurt in the most terrible way. I didn't want it to hurt. I tried not to care, I really did. Nothing was working.

It's not like I gave a shit about what this jerk was doing, but more about who he was doing it with...

Tonight was the party and I still couldn't get that asshole out of my head. Why had our little conversation kept me up that night? Why was he living in my head?

Get out.

Since Rhett moved here, everything got more complicated. When I thought I had finally lived through the worst and most confusing time my father had left me, Rhett seemed to open up a new door with even more emotions I couldn't quite make out.

I was convinced I didn't like him. I hated him. He was like something sent from hell. His hate made me heat up in all kinds of ways.

Faye, Neo and I had talked yesterday. She told us about what she had seen on the trip and more, but she didn't really go into detail when talking about why she came back early.

She said her parents let her go home, since she insisted. Now they're finishing the trip without her.
That whole explanation seemed weird to me though, as if something did not quite add up. However, she wouldn't answer any questions regarding that so I gave up for the time being.

I was still mad at her, but realized it was silly and ignorant. She didn't know Rhett. Didn't know my business with him, if there even was any.

And also, there was nothing but hate between Rhett and me, which is probably what bugged me so much about it. But just because he is a jerk to me, doesn't mean he is that way to Faye as well. So they could do whatever they wanted together. For all I know, they were already doing it. Quite literally.

It scared me a little how greatly a person could change. Honestly, it scared me a lot. Was I doing something wrong? People were supposed to change, but I felt like I've stayed my boring old self.

I knew something within me changed completely when my father died. And that something was burning, raging, it wanted justice. Or maybe it was revenge.
However, it was somewhat tamed. But I didn't let that something be seen. People wouldn't understand, they had their own stuff. So to them, I probably haven't changed at all.

Faye had always been so sweet and caring, perhaps she still was, but something within her changed and it showed. It's like she had developed this whole new personality.

I guess that's what happened with a person when you were away for so long. But how could someone delete their past like that? Memories shaped you. Something must have happened to trigger that change. Everything had a trigger.

Or maybe it wasn't all that deep.

From what she had told us, the world outside of Novak was as breathtaking as it was strange to someone who had only seen Novak and didn't know anything else.

I loved hearing about her trip. Not as much as I would have loved experiencing it myself though.

One day.

Neo didn't seem too interested in the cultures and lands, he had only been capable of annoying the hell out of Faye by asking her about hot people on the other side of the world.

That's right, that's how he'd come out to her. She was happy for him, of course. And a little angry that he, too, could snatch hot guys away from her now.