Back to Mia

Connor

It's been a few months since I met Mia, and things seem to be going really well. I walked into the school and saw Mia. "Hey, good morning." I said.

"Good morning, Eli."

The bell rang.

"See you next class?"

"See you then." She didn't seem right, she was acting like she was hiding something. This was when she started self harming.

First period went well, and I saw her walk into child development. I was wearing a t shirt and you could see a few scars on my arm from the last time I cut. They looked fresh. "What happened to your arm?" She asked when she sat down next to me.

There were three cuts on my arm, none of them facing the same way. It looked like an accident instead of self harm, the only way I got away with it last time. "I don't know how to explain it to you, it's kind of stupid to an outsider."

"What do you mean?"

"We can talk about anything, right?"

"Yeah." She said.

"I um... I did it."

"How? Did you run into something?"

"I took a deep breath.They're self harm scars."

"You cut? Why?"

"I've done it for so long, I don't even know the reason why I started in the first place. I guess so I can feel something."

"I understand it, no need to explain."

"Finally something I don't have to explain."

"You don't explain everything to me."

"I have to help you with all of your homework because you don't understand it and don't like doing homework."

"You don't like doing it either."

"We hold each other accountable."

"How do you know this stuff so well, you barely pay attention in class."

"I'm just that good."

"I'm not good at it, or anything."

"What do you mean?"

"I did something bad." she said.

"What did you do?"

"I started talking to my friend's boyfriend."

"Why?"

"Ironically, she found out I self harm and he does too, so she introduced us."

"Maybe you shouldn't talk to him. You might do something stupid like catch feelings for him, start flirting with your best friend's boyfriend, and then ruin your friendship."

"Well... at least I'll have you still, right?"

"Yeah, you'll always have me. But you still shouldn't do it. Or self harm. That can be really dangerous. You could get addicted to it, and cut too deep."

"What about you?"

"I'll stop if you stop. We can hold each other accountable, like with the homework. Can I see how bad it is?"

Like I suspected, her entire arm was covered. "That is a lot worse than mine. You could end up killing yourself doing that, and I don't think I can live without you."

"I'm sure you'd be fine."

"I wouldn't, though. Not only that, but when you die, there's nothing but darkness and nothingness."