"Are you gonna miss me?" he asked. I could hear the sadness in his voice and his eyes were filled with sorrow as I looked up into them.
"Too much. Don't leave?" I questioned even though I already knew he had to leave. It was in his heart and blood. I looked away from his eyes fearful that I might start crying. I blinked away the tears that were threating to leave my eyes.
"You know I have to but I promise I'll come back to you." he reassured but I didn't believe it. He would probably find someone else and move on while I waited for him when he will never come back.
I felt a tear slip accidently and I wiped it away before he could see but it was too late. "Hey," he said and I felt his strong hands gently lift my chin up to meet his gaze but I refused. "Look at me," I looked up and already regretted it. Those damn big brown eyes will be the death of me and I know that I will never forget them.
"I will come back but for now I leave my heart with you, that will never change. I will call you as much as I can okay?" he said love and reassurance in his voice again but I've been let down too many times. I can't lose him. He was the one who understood me and yet still loved me, and now he is just going to leave me.
"Kay," I said my voice was shaky even if he reassurance didn't change my opinion. and all he did was pull me into his strong chest. This I would miss the most the way I felt when I was in his arms. Safe. Secure. His chest was built but his hugs were soft somehow. And I knew that in this moment I wished that I could stay in his arms forever. But too soon, he let go kissed my forehead and left as I stood there unable to move.
I woke up with a jolt and sweat on my forehead. I always had this dream on that one day when he left me. I couldn't even say his name, let alone hear it in reality, after a year without one word from him, but today, this year I will forget about him. I will move even no matter if my heart will forever ache for him. Today was the first day of my senior year in high school and I would make the best of it. I yawned as I looked at the clock and saw that it was 5AM, too soon for me to get up and I knew that I wouldn't fall back asleep as I laid my head back down on my pillow. I ran my hand across my damp forehead, kicked off the covers and closed my eyes....and the last thing I remember seeing was those brown eyes...
"I wish that I could have this moment for life,
for life, for life
Cuz in this moment I just feel so alive
Alive
Alive.."
Again I woke up but not so fast and banged my hand onto my alarm clock to stop Nicki and from thinking about that one moment I wanted for life. Ouch that wasn't as smooth and successful as it is in the movies. After a minute of banging, I sighed and gave up. I got up threw the clock at the wall, hearing it smash into two.
I streched my limbs, my shirt rising up exposing my flat stomach and grabbed my phone. I headed to the bathroom, careful not to step on my clock that was in two pieces and walked to the mirror. I looked up into the mirror, but my phone via text went off obnoxiously. My eyes slowly grew big as I saw the name that showed on the screen but shouldn't.
Shit.
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