no regrets - soukoku

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(A/N: I didn't have time to edits this I'm so sorry)

Chuyyas POV:
(At the kitchen table)
I'm currently eating my Cheerios barely keeping my eyes open (Ane-San took this as an opportunity to take a photo for our photo album). I couldn't sleep last night thanks to that annoying yet breath taking idiot. I'm still mad at him for calling me "chibi" tho.. IM STILL GROWING!!!!
*calms down*
hmm what was his name? It started with a da.... "Dazai" " and who might that be?" Ane-San said with eyes full of interest. Shit I said his name out loud. Well for starters ane-San already knows that I'm gay. Looks like I won't get out of this conversation easily...""he's, he is a friend I made at school" "OoOoOoOOooo" " WE JUST MET AND HES A F.R.I.E.N.D. FRIEND!!" I said as I bursted out of the room, face red. I could hear her laughter from the other Side of the apartment.

(Time skip A/N: IM SO SORRY)

Im on the way to school, my stomach feels wired, its all bubbly. i-its fluttering for some reason? And I have the sudden urge to see that idiots face.. I turned my head to the right facing a pole and proceeded to bang my head repeatedly hoping that the feeling would go away. I was about to go for a large bang till I felt something holding my head preventing me from banging my head again I look up to see who it was.. I couldn't utter a word.

It's him, dazai. "I've tried this suicide technique once, it was a waist of my time don't bother trying it" my eyes widen, I feel the sudden urge to cry. Why dose he want to die dost he want to live for something?? Or perhaps someone??? "That's sad, I wish it worked on you" that's all I managed to say.. WHAT THE HECK NONONONONO FUCK MY INABILITY TO SHOW THAT I CARE FOR SOMONE, I STILL CAN SHOW IT BUT ITS HARD AND I NEED TO FEEL COMFORTABLE FIRST AGHH.

We walked in silence for a few minutes dazai broke into a fit of laughter, holding his stomach from laughing too hard. I look at him in confusion, isn't he offended, mad or even sad at what I just said?? We arrived at the school entrance. We took off our shoes at the lockers and headed straight to class we didn't say anything to each other afterwords.

"Good morning class" Oda-kun entered the class "open your books to lesson 1 were going to recap then start lesson 2, got it?"

(A/N: I forgot to mention that chuyya and dazai are beside each other but chuyya is on the windows side, if anyones confused I can explain even more and use a photo to explain too)

the sound of pages flipping filled the room "ahem question number one will be for you nakahara, what year was Jojo Siwa born in?"

(A/N: pretend that we learn about Jojo Siwa in our second year of high school)

I never regretted not paying attention in class as much as I do know."well umm" I look to my right and I see a note written '2003' "oh I remembered now siwa was born in 2003" I tried my best to hide the fact that I am panicking "correct" Oda-san said as he wrote something down in his note book. I look to my right to find dazai the idiot drawing somthing on his desk. I grab an empty sheet of paper and wrote a "thank you :)" on it and passed it to the brunette to my right. I soon then received the same paper but with a "np ;D" written on it.

I smile at the cute emoji and began to get lost in my thoughts, again. Im thinking about multiple things at once what should I make for dinner? What color of hat should I buy next week with my allowance? Should I get a part time job to help ane-san out? Was dazai laughing at my accent when we were walking earlier? I thought about the last one again, wait dose he think im lame? Did my voice sound that wired???? I wish I could just diaper "brrring" the bell rang indicating the end of class "ok class that's it for today, go to the laboratory, ango-kun will be waiting for you"

(Time skip to recess)
I went to the roof top with a bag of chips,but I really don't feel like eating right now.. I sat down, back leaning against the wall. I looked at the sky and said "the sky looks pretty..just like dazai" before drifting to sleep.

Dazais pov:
I ran up the stairs as if my life depended on it. I just want one peaceful school day without Lia. ONE. JSUT ONE PEACEFUL DAY IS IT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR?!?!?!??

I kicked down the roof tops door and locked to so Lia wouldnt come in I threw the keys as far as I could not thinking about how to get the fuck out of here, all that matters is that im not with Lia. I turned around to find a sleeping ginger "oof that sleeping position must hurt like a bitch, and is he shivering? But its the Middle of summer?? *sigh*" I went to the sleeping ginger and changed his position.

He is now laying on my lap, he is still shivering tho. I don't have a jacket to cover him up with.. should I hug him so he can get some of my body heat? I was about to do so until I saw tears coming out of his eyes. He must be having a night mare. Why do I feel the need to kill whoever made him cry?? Even if it was in a dream. I can feel the steam come out of my ears due to anger. We just met why do I feel this much emotion towards him. I decide to stop thinking since it's dangerous. I then began stroking his hair and wiping off the tears with my thumb. he's interesting, I want to know more about him. I soon feel the tiny ginger move a bit, he's awake now.

A/N: heyyyyoooo how are you? If yours like to vent Im more than happy to listen, I'd also like to give out a thanks to the person who motivated me to write you know who you are!