Rewriting Fate (Good Girls Series #5)

Chapter 33: Despise

The room was quiet. I was just hugging a pillow, waiting for Blaze to come out of the bathroom. 

I need to clear things out. 

I looked at my phone’s clock display, Blaze’s there for almost an hour and he’s still not coming out. I suddenly felt the urge to knock on the bathroom but I couldn’t forget what happened earlier. 

Napahawak tuloy ako sa dibdib, ang bilis na naman ng tibok ng puso ko at at nanlalamig ang mga kamay ko. 

I almost fell down from the bed when someone knocked on the door, I stood up to open it. I saw a staff member with a push cart.

“Good evening po, Ma’am. Heto na po yung foods na in-order ni Sir.” She showed me trays so I carried it inside. Bale dalawang trays lang naman ‘yun pero mabigat kaya tinulungan pa ako ng staff na dalhin ‘yon papunta sa mini-kitchen. 

The staff came out immediately and I was left here alone again, staring at the dark. Medyo nakaka-disappoint na wala silang generator dito at tanging kandila lang ang ilaw. Buti na lang malamig ang panahon kaya hindi na kailangan ng electric fan or aircon. 

“Cosa devo fare?” [Trans: What should I do?] I asked myself while fidgeting my fingers. 

I’ve decided to stand up and went in front of the bathroom, I was about to knock when it opened. Nagkagulatan pa kami ni Blaze at nahulog pa ang flashlight na hawak niya. I picked it up but our foreheads bumped to each other dahil yumuko rin pala siya para lumimot noon. 

“I am sorry,” nanginginig na sabi niya at hinila ako patayo. I felt his cold and a little bit sweaty hands. When I looked at him, he’s not looking at me and he’s also blushing so I looked away too. Lumayo ulit siya sa akin na parang napaso. “A-Ano ba kasing ginagawa mo roon?” mahinang tanong niya. I heaved a sigh, 

“What took you so long inside?” I asked, hindi naman siya nakasagot. But I know the answer. He locked himself there to avoid me. “Let’s eat,” I said and walked first towards the kitchen but I was surprised when he gently pulled my wrist and made me face him. 

I flinched a bit, but I still managed to look at him. He held my chin and checked on my forehead. Amoy na amoy ko ang pabango sa kanya at pati ang shower gel sa kanya. 

“Where did I hit you? I am sorry,” he whispered. Hindi naman ako makaimik. Dahil sa lapit namin sa isa’t-isa, hindi maiwasang mag-flashback sa isip ko yung nangyari kanina. “Masakit ba? I am really sorry,” I closed my eyes when he started rubbing my forehead, yung part na nauntog sa kanya kanina. 

“Bakit ba kanina ka pa sorry nang sorry?” I asked. Hindi ko na mapigilan, eh. Kanina ko pa napapansin. 

“Because I did some things that you didn’t like in the first place.” He answered while still massaging my forehead.

“Do you feel sorry for kissing me, too?” I asked, natigilan naman siya.

He heaved a sigh as he let go of my chin and finally looked me in the eye.

“Hindi ako nagsisising nilahad ko ang damdamin ko.” he said, “But I am sorry for confessing in the most unexpected time and way. Alam kong nabigla ka, ako rin. I was carried away. And if you want me to say sorry for kissing you, I will say sorry. Because I am only apologizing because I shocked you.” His eyes… were serious and convincing.

“That was… that was my first kiss,” I whispered. Lalo naman siyang na-guilty. I could see him biting his lower lip, he also averted his gaze. “But... Why me?” I asked,