When Queen Satyavati understood that what she did! After Maharaj Pandu's death,when Pandavas came to Hastinapur, Duryodhan and his 99 brothers hate towards Pandavas has disappointed Queen Satyavati.But more than that,the queen is disappointed with herself.
Queen Satyavati's Pov
What I gain!What I wanted and what happened here! I lost my son,I became a widow.Now my own grand-childern are fighting among them.What is there left for me!Nothing, nothing,I am zero now.
I am crying and cursing my fate.But my eyes fell on Ganga river which can be seen from my place.So peacefully,she is flowing with winds.Crossing all bounds,she is serving the people.She is the purest.Many are inspired by you and me!!
And me!!
I am impure,I bring destruction on this family and Ganga! I stopped and watching the river calmly.Even looking at this,I feel so calm and good.
"No, it's my fault,yeah my fault only."I screamed emotionally.
I never called Devi Ganga before as I never needed her.I have a relation with her and I also ignored that,her.I snatch her happiness,her son's rights.This throne of Hastinapur's is her son Bhishma'a right.But I took that.
"No,"I cried.Now tears aren't stopping from my eyes but one day,I wanted to make Devi Ganga cry.Yes,Devi Ganga.I lost,I have no stability to call her as my jiji,I can't.
"It's all because of my karma.For my mistakes, everyone will have to repent."
Here I am the one who only took and she only gave!
She didn't say a word despite for me,her son couldn't be king,that only son of her,she raised him so perfectly.Bhishma is my great son,so obedient towards me.He did everything what I have ordered.He consider me as Devi and what I did with him always! The Almighty is giving me my punishment what I deserved.Yes,I should get all this.
I lay down to the ground
Devi Ganga's Pov
I was walking.Suddenly,a voice came to my mind,that voice was pretty much familiar to me.But who will call me like this,fill with pain and gulity.Oh, Satyavati's!
Satyavati!!But why is she crying for no reason?She is queen of Hastinapur now, daughter-in-laws, grand-childern,mantri everything she has.Then why crying?
Now,I understand",I smiled a bit.Not at Satyavati,but her greed.She wanted to be big always,live a expensive life,royal everything what you wanted,you got.Then why are you reminding me all of sudden!
I can feel your pain,Satya.I never blamed you for anything but your greed.But it's good that you understood.
This Kuru Parivar beared so many.Now like you I also pray for the good.But what is bounded to happen,this will surely happen,sister.
I tried a lot to make you understand,Satya as a elder sister but you never listened me.But I am happy that you have guilt for all your deeds.But I also know that you never wanted any harm for this family.My sons consider you as Devi and he will always.You are great,Satyavati no,no queen Satyavati.You did very good bringing Pandavas and Kunti here.Otherwise the matter could be more worse.You gave Pandavas shelter in their very own place neither Drithrarasthra would never allow them inside the place.
I know how much are you alone now!There are thousands of people there but you can't find anyone beside you,share your pain.But you forget me,Satya.
I am your elder sister and I will always be.Maybe you are alone in this big place but beside this place where your jiji reside.She would always be with you.Fault wasn't only yours,just remember that.I will be your jiji forever whatever you admit or not.
The world would never remember us as sisters ,we will seperate as always we were.But I know you stay in my heart as my younger and whatever anyone thinks,you would be always.
At least,one time come to your this jiji,I would never leave you.It's my promise,Satya,my younger sister.
