I like watching YOU

1.

She is precious and beautiful.

I could watch her all day. It's saturday and as usual she doesn't really do much. She always wakes up late, around ten and the she just lays in bed for hours and reads or is on her phone. She loves reading. When she is sad, she reads. When she is happy she reads. When she is bored she reads. When she is lonely she ready.

But she never really is lonely. I am always there watching over her and protecting her over creeps.

After that she goes downstairs meeting her family. They always eat breakfast together as a family. She, her mother who works long hours all the time, her dad who as a bad temper and is also not really around and her sister over the phone. Her sister is studying medicine.

She always calls her sister because she doesn't really like talking to her parents at breakfast or really anytime. She is more of an introvert, not like the rest of the family.

After that she goes back up to her room and reads some more or sits at her table and starts to paint. She's not bad at it but also not crazy good but she has fun doing it and she then gets distracted from all the bad things happening in the world.

A few weeks ago she started walking everyday in the afternoon. So thats what she does after painting. Sometime she doesn't wear a coat even though its very cold. Then I'd like to scold her or spank her a few times. She would blush at that I am sure. Oh that would be lovely.

After that she eats dinner again with her family and mostly it's silent so she likes going upstairs very soon. So she starts watching the series of the week. She doesn't have a series for each weak but i just like calling it that. She sits on her bed watching it on her computer cuddled in her blanked till late in the night. In the morning she always regrets staying up so late or you could say early.

Before she goes to bad she always brushes her teeth.

And than lastly she writes in her little therapy book. It's called the therapy book because in there she writes everything. The things she's scared of or the things that are worrying her or just things she doesn't want to tell her friends. I think it's good that she doesn't keep those things bottled up inside her. She wouldn't like going to a therapist because then she would have to talk to a person and she would overthink everything, think that her therapist is judging her.

I love that little book because at nights when I climb in her room and watch her sleep silent and peacefully I can read about her worries. Those worries that no one else knows about then her and me. Our little secrets.

So i am here right now watching her sleep. She looks so beautiful lying there in her bed cuddling a pillow.

I would love to sneak up behind her and spoon her. I would put my head on one arm and the other arm I would drape over her waist.

But she would think I am weird. I can't ruin the relationship we have right now.

So I just have to watch her for now.

I turn in her chair and pick up her therapy book. I turn the pages to her last entry.

Hey,

I just wanted to tell yo that I am scared of tomorrow, because tomorrow is the first day of school after winter break and I don't want to go there. I don't want to sit in class and wonder if I can sit next to anyone that likes me. I hope my friends will be there. I don't know if I can go on like this.

Sincerely Idalia