My Poems

Never Will I Ever...

Never Will I Ever…

Never will I ever be perfect

No matter how hard I try

I’m sorry, but it will never happen

Don’t get your hopes up

Never will I ever let someone love me

I can’t let anyone break down my walls

I’ve just been hurt too many times

I still haven’t recovered from the last battle

Never will I ever get used to the pain

You yell and get angry, I cry and stay silent

No matter how many times we go through this

It will never get easier to bear

Never will I ever be able to show you the real me

I can’t express my feelings or show my true personality

If I do, you’ll just reject me like all the rest

And I can’t let you walk away

Never will I ever have any true high school friends

Either I’m the person you talk to when no one else is around

Or I’m just your charity case

No one will want me for me

Never will I ever love myself

What is there to love?

Everyone else hates me

Why shouldn’t I follow the crowd?

Never will I ever be successful

I’m not meant to be out in the world

I’m just not cut out for it

I wouldn’t last a day

Never will I ever have my one, true love

Who would want someone like me?

Neither beautiful looks nor a great personality

He’d be a fool to even give me a second glance

Never will I ever truly be happy

Happiness is a myth in my life

Why go off searching for something that doesn’t exist?

It’d be a waste of time

Never will I ever fit in

I wasn’t made to be popular

I was made to get weird stares when I walk by

It’s just how things work out for me

But Never will I ever lose hope

Despite all that I have said

Maybe one day, I might experience a miracle

And I will finally, truly, be happy

But that is a big maybe…