She's Hurt Inside and Out

Prologue

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"Tangina ka." saad ni Papa, habang nakatingin sa aking mga test paper.

"P-pa.." I said in low tone.

"Ano nang-nangyare sayo?! Huh?!?" sigaw ni papa sakin, habang ako pinipigil ang pag-iyak.

Nasa sala kami ngayon, at nagsisigawan. For sure, rinig na rinig kami ng mga kapit-bahay.

"So-sorry Pa... Ma," I sincerly apologize about my grades.

I know, I didn't do my best this school year. Ginawa ko naman lahat nang kaya ko. Hindi mataas grades ko pero nakapasa ako, pero bakit sila galit na galit saken? Samantalang si ate kahit bagsak di nila sinisigawan? At nag c-celebrate pa sila.

"Nako, tumaas ka na nga sa kwarto mo ayaw ko makita pagmu-muka mo!" sigaw ni Papa, agad agad naman ako na umakyat sa kwarto ko ayaw kong makita nila ako na umiiyak lalo nila akong mamaliitin.

I cried so much that night, this time I forced my self not to cut my wrist.

Ganito ba talaga ang buhay na binigay mo saken god?

"Hoy, Chels!" I hear that voice again, my comfort.

"Hi, Love!" It's my bestfriend, Lyn.

"May classes ka?" tanong nya sakin, habang nakatitig ng maigi sa mata ko.

"Wala. Bakit?" I asked, she's been looking at my eyes for so long now.

"Did you cry?" She asked me, looking concern at what happend.

"What? No. No." I disagreed then looked away. I don't want her to be worried about me that much. She's always there for me, sometime's I just think that maybe she's getting tired of me.

"Weh? Tell me, what happened?"

"Hayst.." I lost, I can't keep secret on her.

"Dad, got mad about my grades.." I told her, while looking down. I don't know how to explain it to her.

"What?!" She said, actually scream.

"Iyon pinagalitan lang naman ako," Actually dad, slap me it still hurts tho.

"Pinagalitan ka? Atleast nga nakapasa ka. Eh yang ate mo bagsak di manlang nila pinagalitan? Wow favorite." The last word hurts me. Siguro di nila ako deserve.

"Oh, bat ka natahimik?" She asked.

"Love, satingin mo ayos lang ba pag nag- layas ako?" tinignan ko sya, muka syang nagulat sa tanong ko. Matagal ko nang planong lumayas, pero diko magawa.

"No." sabi nya, habang seryosong nakatingin saken.

"Why?"

"Siguro pag-tapos na nang collage? Dalawang term nalang." siguro tama nga sya, tsaka para pag nag layas ako sa bahay may pera nako.

"Ano nanaman ate?" I asked her, she's fucking annoying.

I look at her, she looks mad.

"Chels, nawawala yung pinaka mahal kong make-up." here it goes.

"Anong gagawin ko?"

"Nasan?! San mo tinago?!?" she started messing up my things, looking for her make-up that I didn't even touch!

I just stood there while watching her mess my things.

Suddenly I started to feel sad? I guess?

Ewan ko ba. Why are they always treat me like this. They always treat me like a trash. I don't even know what's there problem.

"Tangina ka!" she said before going out of the room.

I looked around my room. It's a fucking mess.

Just looking at my room makes me think, do I deserve to be treated like this with my own family?

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Just a simple note from the autor.

Hi hon! If your reading this story, thank you so muchhh!