I see him,
It's a new rush,
Somehow always the same,
But unfamiliar,
Maybe more intense,
Like someone ripped all the bad things out of my soul,
In seconds it's like someone stuffed cotton candy into my system,
So sublime.
I fear of him,
Everlasting fear that he never thinks of me,
If he does,
Doubting its good,
He'll never know,
Maybe I totally blinded,
blinded by love,
In love with him,
Never to be loved in return.
I love him,
Crinkles slip next to his eyes with that smile,
His eyes holding a hue so different,
His heart holding smiles for everyone around,
Grasping a lack of fear of what they think of him,
Brave.
I cry for him,
Alone,
I'm just some girl,
Secretly captivated by only him,
It kills my heart every second,
Impossible to get distracted from the glue he's put into my mind,
He put himself there,
Doesn't even know the pain, doesn't even know he did it.
I can't wait for him,
Maybe I'll be gone by the time he realizes,
The way I could look at him like i fancy the stars,
He's infatuated with her,
Pourin his heart out,
May she never hurt him again,
Hurting a man like him, ripping a heart out like mine.
I'll remember him,
New rush that flashed through me,
Creeping smiles on my face when he didn't even realize I was sad,
My first new feeling,
Stealing me from misery,
Our unspoken goodbyes.
I see him,
I fear of him,
I love him,
I cry for him,
I'll remember him,
I'll say goodbye to him,
Even if it hurts.
