little - fundy (0-3)
cg - wilbur
others - quackity
in-game with trans ftm fundy, he's out and transitioned. revivebur where they repaired their relationship
tw - dysphoria, slipping due to said dysphoria, some crying, mentions of a period in the very beginning, self misgendering and invalidation, slight panic attack in beginning, I SWEAR ITS GONNA BE FLUFFY JUST NEED TO GET THROUGH BEGINNING IM SORRY
————— | fundy's pov | —————
All week I had spent in pain. I thought once Satan's waterfall had finally run dry I would finally be able to live in peace. But no, it was never that easy. When your brain and your body don't match it never is. I was currently laid in bed the way I had been the entire last week.
Rolling over, or more like flopping dramatically over, I caught a glimpse of myself in the full length mirror placed in the corner of the room. It was a gift from Eret long ago. And the reflection I saw wasn't right at all.
I looked like a girl. My bone structure is too feminine. My shoulders too narrow. My eyebrows too thin and my lashes too long. I couldn't look away no matter how much I tried. Everything was growing to be to much, things seems so much bigger and I was getting smaller and fast.
I could hear my heartbeat pounding in my ears as breathing became harder to do. Eyes finally tore away from the mirror to glance around. Why is everything so big all the sudden? I don't understand it. As a million different thoughts roared through my head one stood out, soon being the only thing I could think about.
I want my daddy. Where's daddy?
Rushing out of bed I ended up falling back down, dizzy from getting up to fast. As soon as the room stopped spinning I started looking around to find my shoes. After finding them and putting them on I sprinted out of the house towards where daddy has been staying. Luckily it was after dark so no one was there to witness me running down the paths, barely breathing and clearly crying.
Coming to a stop outside of the mostly hidden structure daddy stayed in I hesitated. What if he didn't want to see me? We'd made up after his revival so it's not like he'd kick me out but my childish brain didn't allow me to realize that. Quickly and before I could just turn around to leave, I knocked.
"What do you- Fundy?" The look of annoyance immediately melted away, replaced by one of worry.
"Daddy" I whimpered, diving into him.
He immediately hugged me, shushing me gently. After a moment he guided me inside and closed the door, still holding me as I cried into his chest.
"Wilbur? What the hell is taking you so damn long? We have business to-" Quackity fell quiet at the sight.
I started crying harder, trying to hide from the scary man. Daddy's hands traced patterns on my back to soothe me, as he meet the others slightly concerned looks.
"Is he ok? Well clearly not, he's crying but- Why don't I go, we can finish this later" I peered over at him cautiously, him smiling gently at me.
"I'll see you later Will. Goodbye Fundy"
"Bye bye" I choked out as he closed the door behind him.
I felt bad. Daddy had been in a meeting like he used to all the time. And I just showed up to ruin it. I always managed to ruin things, huh.
Daddy's grip shifted a bit as he carefully picked me up. I didn't protest, just leaned into his touch. He sits down on the couch with me in his lap, my grip on him staying tight. I can feel small kisses being pressed into my forehead and hairline.
