No sleep at night
Holding my ribs tight.
All this hate in my veins,
I wish I could take the reins,
And forget about things I can't change.
How do I keep a smile on my face
when the world is a terrible place?
The world is falling apart,
But it keeps turning for the next day.
The world is awful and cruel
Only my dreams and hope make it worth way.
Nights are days
Days are nights.
Sleeping away mental fights.
Masqueraded when it's bright,
Desperate attempts to appear alright.
Try as I fight
With all my might
I'm awake in the middle of the night
From fear and fright
Wondering why
I have to be miserable
In a world that's cruel and unusual
Expected to survive and overcome it's evil
Odds unfairly placed above my head
To scare me into submission or wishing I was dead
Lost in my daydreams.
Willing to get away by any means.
Dreams with no solutions,
Confused with my emotions.
Stuck in this place where I can't grow,
in this place where I feel unknown.
heart is steady aching.
Mind is always racing
Heart with a steady ache
In the night keeping me awake
I don't know what's wrong with me
Why I once told myself these things are meant to be
Cuz ever since I was a baby
Seems the world has had this dagger aimed at me
Dehumanized for what I was born to be
Secretly an emotional storm
Emotionally torn
emotionally worn.
Though I don't have much to mourn
I've only existed and that's enough to be scorned
Not a word uttered to me
And I can feel the world move against me
The overbearing feeling stripping my mind, body, and soul
Till I can never feel whole
Peace please hold me within your clutches
I'm falling because the world is taking my handmade crutches
My mind is divided ten different ways
All I ever wanted was to feel okay
Like I was enough
Anxiety and depression beatings so rough
I've been nearly numb
Ever since I was young
Head was always hung
Ready to cower before what the world brung
Terrified to speak a word
Many thought my voice was unheard
Forever tall
but bound to feel small
Was never enough
even when I gave it my all
Escaping in my dreams
Slowly falling apart at the seams
Hidden behind broken dreams
That seeped into the day
That kept my sadness at bay
I have no time for feeling ashamed
For things I can never change
I can't force them to stay.
I can't force bad things away.
I can't forever cope this way.
If I do
I will just whither away
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Somber, Melancholy, and Bittersweet (A Collection of Poems)
Poetry"And I am sad. And I am mad. The maddest you can be, But with love as deep as the sea, As warm as the summer sky, Caressing like the moon in the night." --Written in moments of strong emotion
