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         Juliet-                        Since covid I've stayed inside like a lot  I'm quite and always preferred to be alone but this was too much even for me at first I thought of it as a brake that I needed and that was true at first but since the  last two years I feel numb and I've noticed that I'm behind. I don't feel like a teenager and I don't feel like I'm an adult. but I know I'm not like everyone else I'm mature yet I feel like a shy child I have more adult moments than reckless teenage moments I feel confused and tired I'm  only 17 and still have so much time left on this earth. I'm in my last year of  high school and haven't gotten one good thing to show for it no boyfriend no dance no movie like nights or adventures my high school life is more like a background character that might get one episode before their death to help the main character develop  I have no real  plans because I didn't plan this far ahead I thought at this point there would be nothing I thought I would be dead but I'm here and my time in school is almost out of course I have dreams and hopes but their not supported by the people who matter in my life if I'm being honest I'm not sure I'm good enough to make my hopes and dreams a reality I want them even if I'm living paycheck t0 paycheck at least then I would be happy right?    

I'm scared to leave yet so ready to not have to listen to anyone not support me or tell me what I should do instead of what is good for me I'm ready to not hear peoples opinions on me or what I like or love I'm ready to not hear that things that I like or love is dumb stupid or weird I'm ready to be able to make mistakes and not having to be a golden child but I'm  scared to leave high school with out ever experiencing it so for my last year here I'm gonna try like really try for once to be a normal high schooler may  be even get in a fight ha! I'm kidding anyways lets get started


                         Senior year list

              - make real friends

             - lose v card

              -go to prom

             - relax

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⏰ Last updated: Aug 03, 2021 ⏰

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