A Pleasant Sorrow/A Tom Hiddleston FanFic

Chapter I

"In all the world there is no heart for me like yours. In all the world there is no love for you like mine." -Maya Angelou

I raise my head and look to my side, It's snowing today, The weather was really cold, Even though I didn't wear enough clothes to warm me. I looked outside the window, There are no birds today, They must be sleeping warm while i'm here freezing in Chemistry Lab, Sigh. I look down sneaking my phone behind my desk, Staring at my gorgeous lockscreen, Galaxy that I painted. Few more minutes and this hell Lab is over, It can be a good thing but to me it's really normal, Being inside or not is the same, Because I spend all the time alone . The only difference I have is that I don't embarrass myself or feel that awkward when I'm indoor . My phone was put to silent ; Last thing I need is the tutor asking me to stand up and explain why I had my phone in my hands ringing while he was explaining God only knows what . These days are going slow . Everything seems so "plain" . I can't say such about my "super adventurous life" huh. I sigh again while hiding my phone inside my pocket and lifting my right hand under my chin , staring blankly at nowhere . " I see some of you might have lost track , Isn't that correct Miss Mills " ?! I lift my eyes surprisingly , exhale surprisingly , a smile forms on my lips surprisingly ,I hate when they turn their heads facing me , I hate when they stare , I hate this place "umm , I guess " . I simply say. " class dismissed " Mr. Richard's voice interrupts , a man in his 50s spent his life among books and researches , wait isn't that where I'm heading ? I'm ending up like him one way or another.

Last thoughts leaving my mind before I rush towards the door trying to get myself out of here as fast as possible . "Emma!" I turn around while holding my two beloved heavy books, Towards Mr.Richard who seems unsatisfied with the way he embarrassed me just a little earlier . " yes , Mr.Richard " I say gently , with a soft smile , having my arms wrapped around my books. He has a wide smile on his face , a one that has its way all through these wrinkles giving him a slight look of warmth and giving me a slight comfort inside . I can still hear footsteps of people leaving the lab heading towards the corridor . " Emma , you seemed distracted through the lecture , is there something wrong ? " He asked with a worried voice . I hid behind my usual answer " No , Mr. Richard everything is fine , I'm just tired that's all " I say with a nod . "Good , good , are you ready for the exam on the 18th of this month " ?! He says while collecting random papers , folding them and putting them in his book . His eyes are focused on me . " I sure hope so ! " I say raising my eyebrows , putting tufts of my hair behind my ear . " since you are my best student I sure depend on you " he says hopeful . GOD ! Can this get any more awkward , The lab is empty , everyone is out , I am here alone with my tutor having to put up with all of these ridiculous small talks , I bet they are having rumors About me having a relationship with my tutor . Ugh I sigh then I softly say " I won't let you down " . I smile , he smiles " have a nice day " He finishes collecting everything . " you too. " I turn and walk fast . The weight of the books is nothing compared to the weight of the pressure I feel being in here . I feel like I am a prisoner , like every move I make will be judged , I leave The lab heading to my locker which is just steps away , The corridor is full of people , this is going to be the longest road I have to walk . I take a deep breath , I'm walking . He is here . He is standing , tall , he is smiling , chatting , making eye contact with everybody that is around . There are guys and girls around him . I see them everyday . Together everyday . I never approach, I never say anything , I just walk by . His hair is brushed backwards this time and he is wearing khakis trousers with dark blue t-shirt , holding a black leather jacket in his hands . I reach my locker and open it , My back is facing them , I feel like anxiety is eating me alive , I can't do anything ! Why is he standing there ? I put my two books inside quickly then I take off my lab coat , hang it , Im breathing heavily. I take my crimson jacket out of the locker , I close the locker quietly . I'm still breathing heavily and they are still there laughing . I can hear his laugh . I can hear his voice cracking Jokes . Goosebumps are all over my body , The main door is about 10 feet away , I know because I count , I count because I get bored , I get bored because no one wants to hang out with the girl who solves nuclear physics problems during her free time . The air is cold , People entering and leaving the corridor creating a cold breeze , a strong breeze , It hits my body , it hits my face , my lips , it goes through my hair , I feel cold and I kinda feel numb . I take wide steps heading towards the main door , I try to ignore the coldness and the numbness, I try to ignore my anxiety and them , I try to ignore his voice and his image inside of my mind . I put on my jacket while walking slowly , Then I reach for my phone , 4 missed calls from uncle Hank , I dial his number and wait for him to replay , Still walking . One ring , two rings , three " Emmy lamey , How are you doing ?!" His voice cuts off the tunes , I chuckle softly , " when are you going to stop creating these silly nicknames ?" " Not until you turn 18 Emma Gran'ma " he says sarcastically " Uncle I'm 19 " I smile , I can sense him smiling on the other side " you're getting old and so are your nicknames " I say teasing. I'm facing the door ."Ouch ! Ouch ! Do you hear that ?! " I know what he is going to say so I automatically say it while he says it at the exact same time. " that's the sound of my heart breaking " .. He laughs