What Do You Do?

What do you do when your such a young person, that has to take on so many responsibilities? What do you do, when at most times you don't know how to handle being a parent at just 7 years old? The hard part about life is it throws so many curves balls at you. Your just 7 years old having to take care of a Autistic 6 year old, then on top of that having to sit there and change diapers on a 2 year old. Having to learn how to cook, clean and have everyone except yourself in bed at a decent time. Then yourself not going to bed til 3-4 o'clock in the morning, knowing you were only going to get 1 or 2 hours of sleep. Even though most nights you wouldn't sleep at all. My schooling became less of my worries as this 7 year old was now a full time parent. Not caring that she was failing herself. She was more worried about her siblings. Going on the years 8, 9, 10, still carrying on. Getting raped by big brother, getting raped by different men and still tried to maintain a poker face. 11, 12, 13, picking up mom and dad cause they were so high on fucking drugs and drunk off of alcohol. Still carrying on being her siblings keeper. 14, 15, making sure we didn't get taken away cause it would destroy my brother and sister. 16 finally getting taken away, and even though we had our saving grace I still had to help be a parent. At least we had power, food, water, and a place to sleep. Til this day I struggle with a lot of things. Was diagnosed at the age of 7 with PTSD, Severe Depression, Anxiety, insomnia, And boarder line personality disorder. I struggle still seeing my mom and dad get drunk or get high on drugs. But I carry on like a solider with my battle wounds. Just so I can still be my siblings keeper. But this time she is a he but will keep carrying on.