Smiles - Hell Rider's MC #3 -

Chapter 3

Guess who's in college now.

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•SMILES•
Waking up in the morning was hard. Crying myself to sleep always caused my eyes to feel extremely heavy and crusty, so it took me longer to gauge my surroundings then usual. When I finally realized that I was in my bedroom, and that the sun was up I groaned and practically dragged myself out of bed.

Not even bothering to straighten up the tossed blankets, I headed straight to my bathroom to brush my teeth and splash cold water on my face to help with the feeling. I was in charge of the bar today so I did my best to wake my mind up before I walked out.

Knowing that Key would sit at the bar all day and talk to me cause I have no choice makes me want to shrivel up and die.

Getting dressed, I finally made my way out to the bar where Jason, one of the prospects, was already working.

Alpha talked about patching him in a bit ago in our last meeting, but Jason doesn't know about that yet.

"Sup Jase how's the bar?" I asked as I got behind it.

"Nobody's really ordered anything yet. Although it was funny watching the one night stands leave this morning," he chuckled.

I groaned. "What happened?"

"Apparently Joker slept with another one who thought she could replace Raine, and when he kicked her out of his room she was sobbing. Eventually someone had to drag her from his door and actually throw her out cause she refused to leave," he laughed.

I chuckled. "I'm sure he'll be in a god awful mood for the rest of the day then as well."

"Oh I bet."

I helped him finish setting up the bar cause he forgot a few things and then I assigned him to help the ladies haul soil for the flowerbeds since they'd been asking for help for a couple days now. Not too long after men started coming down asking for breakfast.

A few hours went by of taking orders and giving people drinks before my mood took a turn for the worst as Key stepped in. There were a few guys who talked to him and kept him distracted for a bit but I knew it was only a matter of time before he came over to me.

It was as if I could feel his eyes on me as I moved around the bar; his gaze like fire on the side of my face. I was able to ignore it for so long before curiosity got the best of me and I looked up.

Fuck.

That stupid smirk of his showed up as soon as we made eye contact, his gaze cocky and arrogant.

I hated the way my body reacted to him. I hated the way my cheeks flushed. I hated the way my body heated up as if it was waiting for this moment. I hated the way my eyes welled with tears because I missed who he used to be so fucking much.

But most of all, I hated the way my heart broke, knowing that all I was to him was a toy. A fucking toy.

I snapped my head to the side, breaking eye contact. I tried to block him out by taking a couple more orders but that task was basically impossible. Some of the club members could tell that I was upset, and one of the females asked if I was okay and I just had to nod and look away because I knew I was about to break. Being near him set me back to square one and I refused to go back to that weak state I was before.

But before I could dwell on my thoughts for much longer, Miranda sat down at the bar.

"How you doin' Smiles?" She asked, giving me a sympathetic look. I sigh and slid someone a beer before leaning on the bartop in front of her.

"Honestly? I can feel his eyes on me constantly and it makes me want to shrivel into a hole and never come out," I muttered to her quietly.

She placed her hand over mine and squeezed lightly, trying to comfort me with physical touch. It worked a little bit but when you can feel the person who broke your heart staring at you, it's a little difficult to cheer up.

"Would you like me to kick him in between the legs for you?"

I laughed, throwing my head back and allowing my eyes to fall shut. Count on this woman to always make me feel loved and appreciated.

Still smiling, I turned my head to face her. She still looked unamused. "Did you think I was joking?"

I chuckled. "Nah, but it's okay. I'll manage I promise. And if anything happens I promise I'll come straight to you."

"Good," she patted my hand and glared openly at Key, causing me to throw my head back with laughter. This woman was so protective over me it made me feel so loved.

I risked a glance over at Key and the absolute confusion that covered his expression made my amusement double.

Our amusement was cut short when Joker walked in, his expression dark and stormy as he stalked up to the bar and sat down rather aggressively. Almost right away he took Miranda's hand in his as a form of comfort however his body didn't relax at all.

Ever since the incident with Raine Miranda had taken it upon herself to make sure that Joker is alright by being a motherly figure that he could go to for comfort. Even though they were similar ages we all knew that he appreciated it a lot because that woman's wisdom was nothing to be challenged.

"How're you holding up Smiles?" He asked. The only people who knew about my dilemma were Miranda, Joker, and Lily. Alpha and a few others knew that I was gay but they didn't know about the current situation I was having with Key.

When I first told Joker about why I was so upset he almost went and killed Key but I was able to convince him to sit back down and watch a movie with him instead. I know that a lot of people here are very protective of me because of how I came into the club and I appreciate it, but sometimes they worry me with how dramatic they are.

"I'm doing alright. Could be better for obvious reasons, but it's okay," I gave him a small smile. Miranda and Joker shared a look before dropping the subject, choosing to talk about how Jason has been doing at the bar and whatnot.

We made small talk in between me serving people for about an hour before Ripper and Lily came in. Lily looked as lively as ever and Ripper just looked content that she was happy.

Those two were honestly such a perfect couple, it almost made me jealous of how strong of a connection they had.

I wish I had a special person like that where I could always go to them no matter how bad I was feeling and they would always be there for me. I wanted to have such a strong connection with someone to where we were each other's other halves. I didn't want to be in a relationship where I wasn't sure if they liked me or not; I didn't want to have to constantly question whether or not their feelings for me were real.

And that's why I was having such a strong issue with Key. He was constantly leading me on and then going to other people, leaving me in the dust after promising me I was the one for him. Of course I liked him, of course I felt such a strong fucking pull towards him it ate me up on the inside but there was nothing I could do about it. I was forced to just sit and watch as he took my heart and stamped it into the ground with little to no effort. And having to watch so many others in the club find their soulmate made me feel so utterly alone it was starting to tear me apart.

Lost in thought, I didn't notice exactly who was making their way over to the bar until it was too late. And sadly since I was working there was no way I was going to be able to run and hide in my room until the coast was clear.

The only warning I had beforehand was hearing Miranda and Joker slam their glasses down at the same time. Startled by the noise, I looked up and almost pissed myself right then and there.

"Long time no see sweetheart."