I love you, Mr. Racer

CHAPTER 8 - REALIZATION

Noah's POV

I gulp another glass of water. And this is my fourth one.

And I still feel the erratic beating of my heart. I ran away from him and just ask Nana Alejandra to bring him back to his room. I said I suddenly feel unwell as an alibi. 

But, I still feel how minty his breath was and how plump his lips are. Unknowingly, my fingers lingers on my lips, and it makes me smile.

Snap out of it Noah! He is your patient, for goodness sake!

I shake my head and drink another glass of water.  I went to my room after and take a shower. I need a cold one to clear my mind.

After that, I check him on his room and I found out that he is sleeping. I tiptoe my way towards his bed and looks at his sleeping form.

He looks calm and fast asleep so I had the confidence to talk to him.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean what happened earlier. It wasn't my intention. I hope I didn't make you feel awkward. I want to be professional in my job."

Then I left.

The next morning, when I wake him up, he's just his normal self. And he didn't open up about the incident yesterday.

I am so glad that he is not acting awkward or weird after that. 

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It's been a month since, he started focusing on his therapy. And I am so proud that he is doing so well. Maybe in a few more months, I can guarantee that he can started walking again. 

Today is like a normal day. He just finished his breakfast and now we are at the garden. He said he wants to breathe some air so I brought him here. He was just bathing in the sun while his eyes were close.

And from this view, he looks like a different person. Gone with the cold eyes and creasing brows. He was smiling a little which makes him looks younger.

And handsome.

Yes. I admit defeat. This brute is definitely handsome. If he is not angry or shouting. But I will not definitely admit that to him upfront. I don't have the courage to do so.

I was curious  last night about his previous life so I started searching him and look for his background. It is prohibited for us to know our patients personally. But I don't care. No one will know.  And what I read shocked me.

I didn't know that he is that famous! He literally is all over every sports magazine, lifestyle, men's magazine and the like.

Also, I saw his so called ex-boyfriend James. I'm stabbing his picture on my laptop last night. How can he stay on a vacation but his boyfriend his suffering at the same time? Hmp.

If I am his boyfriend-- wait what?

Snap snap snap Noah! Why are you thinking that?

"Done checking me out? I would like to go back to my room now. "

I feel my face heat up. Embarrassing! He saw me checking him out!

"What do you m-mean? I'm just looking at the... Garden! Yes at the garden!"

He smirked at me like he didn't believe what I am telling him.

"Okay, if you say so."

I wheeled him in and bring him back to his room.

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Later that afternoon,  I am waiting for Elijah's snack prepared by Nana. And when she's done, i brought it to him inside his room. I was almost in his room when I heard a voice humming, and strum of guitar. I peaked in his door, and there I saw him him singing.

I didn't know he has a beautiful voice. I never heard him sing since my day one. And I must say, the voice suited the face very well.

I was surprised when he turned to look at me. I could walk back so i just smile. 

'How long you've been standing there?" He asked. 

"Not that long, I just got here. Nana Alejandra sent a snack for you." I said as i walk towards him. 

"Thank you, have you had your snack?"

I shook my head and said " Not yet. But Nana left something for me, I will eat it after you finished yours."

He moved the plate towards me, :Come and join me with this. I cannot eat it all.  Feeling a little awkward, i agreed. 

When we finished the food, there was just silence between the two of us. I can see that he wants to open up a topic , and so am I but my mouth is not cooperating with me.  I was still thinking of what to do  when I heard a soft voice singing. 

And that is Elijah. 

*Insert Mew's cover of At my Worst, originally by Pink $weat*

Can I call you baby?
Can you be my friend?
Can you be my lover up until the very end?
Let me show you love, oh, I don't pretend
Stick by my side even when the world is givin' in, yeah

Oh, oh, oh, don't
Don't you worry
I'll be there, whenever you want me

I need somebody who can love me at my worst
No, I'm not perfect, but I hope you see my worth
'Cause it's only you, nobody new, I put you first
And for you, boy, I swear I'll do the worst...

I don't know what to react. This is the first time I heard him sing up close. Not to mention, that he changed the lyrics!

"I, uhm..." I slowly clapped my hands to relieved the tension in the air.

"That was goo—"

"I like you."

And I froze. 

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AN: A little lame. I'll do good next time. I just wanted to update. Thanks!