Pretty again, I'll do anything to make her feel pretty again
"Push Ezelle,Push!" Said my doctor.
I was pushing with all my might.
"I see the head a couple more pushes and she's out. you can rest until you have another contraction ok."
I nodded and started crying.
One of the nurses seen me crying.
"What are you crying for? Is it because your excited to see your baby?"
I simply nodded.
She gave me a warm smile, soon another contraction came and I started pushing.
I oppted on not using an epidural, so this pain wasn't really nothing compared to the pain in my heart.
The sh!t still hurt tho.
"One more big push Ezelle." She said.
Screaming and pushing I managed to give birth to a beautiful baby girl.
After the nurses wiped her down, weighted her and took her vitals she was handed to me. A beautiful and screaming 7 pound, baby girl. I teared up as I held her. I kissed her forehead and smiled.
She was so perfect. She had the cutest nose. The biggest brown eyes just like mine. Her lips where exactly like her daddy's although hers was much more smaller they where still full. She was just perfect.
"Ms. Ezelle, what will you name your beautiful daughter?" One of the nurses asked.
"I don't know." I said.
"Well wheres her father?" she asked.
I rolled my eyes at her."obviously not here. Ou I hate his ass I swear I fcking hate him! I go through everything by my fcking self!" I said as tears streamed down my eyes.
"Why isn't your family here?" She asked annoying the piss out me.
"Lady what the fck are you? A fcking social worker? A detective?A spy? What you asking all them fcking question?" I clicked out.
"Baby I see all the hurt in your eyes and hear it in the crackle of your voice.All im doing is trying to help you, Let your gaurd down."She said as she walked over to me.
"Excuse me,can you hand me my phone?" I asked.
She shook her head and handed me my phone before she took my daughter and left out.
"Bye mommy baby I love you.Oh and her name is Londyn Ariel."
I looked up Jon's name and called him.
It took forever for me to reach him but I did. "Jon I had our baby her name is Londyn Ariel can you please come see her? "
"we gone see Ezelle damn, I'll get there when I get there alright." He spat.
"damn dude this yo first born your daughter man.You really aint sh!t bruh I do everything for you and all I ask is that you come see your Baby girl!" I Cried.
"Alright E damn I'm on my way now." He said with an attitude.
I shook my head and hung up. I turned over and cried my self to sleep.
I was woken up by the nurse.
"Hey mom, I think Londyn is hungry, want to feed her?" She asked .
I smiled and nodded, she made me so happy. Everything about my daughter was perfect.
"Hey how long have I've been sleeping?" I asked.
"About 3 hours now." She responded.
"Has anyone come and asked about me or her?" I asked.
She simply shook her head no.
"Um nurse..." I started.
"Jackie." She said.
"Nurse Jackie I'm sorry about earlier, I'm just upset about my baby daddy, he always making me upset. " I said.
"I understand honey but.." She began to say before Jon walked in.
"Hey E."He said as he walked over to the bed and kissed me.
I looked at him so oddly.
"Can I hold my daughter?" He asked nicely.
I looked at Londyn Ariel and to him. I slowly pulled her off of my breast and handed her to him.
He held the back of her head and lifted her up so she was eye level to him. He began to cry as he smiled and said,"You are the love of my life, Everything I have, and everything I am, is yours..forever." As he kissed her forehead.
I looked at him and began to cry, the moment was cute but deep down I knew it was only a matter off time before he left me again. And it'll hurt more this time because now we have a daughter. We have always had an on and off relationship. As much as I knew he would never and could never leave me he still hurt me with the shit he did.
