Habromania

𝑪𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒕𝒆𝒓 12

"Let them go now my child," he said I wanted to ask him what but the door finally closed. Memories from the past them came in flashing like a flood in my head.

At the age of 7, I saw how happy I was at my birthday a lot of presents, guests, and new friends. For me, at that time my life is so perfect full of colors and rainbows.

At the age of 10, my eyes were finally opened to the brutality of the world how dark it is and how cruel it is.

At the age of 13, I saw my dad being killed right in Infront of me, I saw how brutal they killed him. He got killed because he was trying to protect me from the kidnappers.

At the age of 14, my mom blamed me for what happened after my dad's court trial and found the killers not guilty.

At the age of 15, I never thought my mom had a bad intention towards me. She tried to kill me but didn't succeed. So she tortured me mentally.

At the age of 17, her torture got so severe that made me depressed. She showed me how useless I was and did not belong to their family.

I then remember our campus nurse told me "Your hands are not papers, don't write on them." When I was 9 years old who knew she'd say it again? "Your hands are not papers, don't cut them."

But this time I told a depressed 17 girl. I wanted to give up way back then, I was suicidal and attempted to do it at school since I was in boarding school. But then,

At the age of 18, I again met my best friend, Lea, she then comforted and showed me once again the beauty of life. Every time I have anxiety attacks she's right by my side listening and understanding me.

At the age of 20, my mom pressured me and forced me to take a course I didn't like. But since it pleased her I did it. Until I found myself depressive and suicidal again.

At the age of 21, I met Sean he and Lea made my life better. They never left my side in everything I do. They watched me grow, no we watched each other grow.

Until this thing happened, we went on an overseas trip. It had been a joyful vacation not until on our way home we got hit by a tow truck that caused Lea and Sean's death. Up until now, I can't accept it, I can't accept that I lost them.

I lose the two most important persons in my life. A year then escaped from my eyes, and then Lea and Sean appeared right in Infront of me I smiled at them. "Kristine, please wake up I can't lose a friend." Lea said then held my hand "I told you! You should've stayed at my place!" Sean said crying I then also cried and removed my hand from their grip.

"The two of you showed me what life felt like, how it felt like to live freely and happily. You both showed me the true meaning of happiness, that is accepting and letting all go." I said they both looked at me cluelessly I then sighed my whole body trembling.

"I'm... Letting my grip on the both of you go now..." I said as I cried more they looked at each other and looked at me with a smile. "Thank you Kristine thank you for letting us go now," Lea said emotionally and hugged me. "No matter what happens we'll be right here for you, we won't leave your side the way we did before." Sean then said and joined our hug.

I was crying endlessly when Lea wiped it and kissed my forehead "Don't cry now Princess, you have been a very good friend. I'm leaving this planet not because I want to, but because I don't belong here anymore. Promise you won't forget me ok? And in my next life, I'll be wishing you'll still be my friend." She said and hugged me once again she then closed her eyes and her soul turned into ashes as it vanished in the thin air. I tried to catch it but I can't "Leaaaaa!"

I said and I looked at Sean crying he wiped my tears and smiled his reassuring smile. "Shh now, he's waiting for you. Go back to him, I love you, Kristine. Until we meet again." He said just like Lea he closed his eyes and his soul turned into ashes. "Nooo! Seannn!" I shouted, "I'm such a horrible person, didn't even have the chance to tell them I'm grateful to have them in my life."

I then opened my eyes and as myself crying still lying in the hospital bed. I then realized, that even tho nothing is permanent in this world, the love of your friends and the people who truly love you is endless.