Weak For Him || Darkness Book #1 ✔️

Prologue

Stacey's Pov

Why can't I move on? It's been over a year, and I can't seem to get over him. I sit on my bed, fiddling with the bracelet he bought me as I look through the pictures that I still can't bring myself to burn. What am I gonna do?
I love him more than anything, and he just pushed me away. He says his love will ruin me, that it will fuck me up more than it already has.
But, isn't that my choice to make, not his. I know he went to prison a few months after he broke up with me.Why? Surely that's not a coincidence...
And I know he's out because I've seen him around but he aviods me like the damn plague.
Did he ever love me or did he just use me. He was a dickhead.. but possessive. He'd buy me things - like the bracelet, but then.. like now, avoid me or push me away like he doesn't want me. He's so goddamn confusing..
Then there's the time he savagely beaten Leon for just trying to talk to me - his own friend. Then.. at the same time he would walk past me in school like he doesn't even know me. Fucking weirdo.
Putting the bracelet back inside its box, then the photo album onto its shelf. I look myself over in the mirror dreading what I'm about to do.
My bestfriend Mia has set me up on yet another date. I finally just go along with them now and then to shut her up. I have no interest in meeting someone new. But, I get free drinks and food so it's not all that bad.
Grabbing my purse, I put away some cash, my gloss and perfume then grab my phone heading out of my bedroom.
"You look nice, where are you going?" my mum asks and I smile at her.
"Thanks, and just out, I'll be back later. Don't wait up" I tell her and leave the house climbing in the back of my awaiting taxi.

***

Arriving at the bar, when all I can think about is Liam. I don't wanna be doing this but I promised Mia I'd go to this one. I take a breather and climb out the car.
Looking around for the guy - Andrew - when I spot him waiting by the entrance.
I'm nearing the bar and I start to get nervous. What if he's weird. Not Liam weird but like weird, weird.. Uncomfortably so.
"Hi Stacey" he says as soon as he sees me and I smile at him. Maybe he isn't so bad.. he's caucasian, at least six feet tall, short brown hair and dressed in blue jeans and a white shirt.
"Hi, Andrew. It's nice to meet you" I say feeling awkward. He doesn't feel weird. He's just not my type.
"You too, you look hot by the way" he says and I smile uncomfortably.
"Thanks, you look good too" I tell him and he smiles continuing to look me over.
"Shall we go inside, grab some food, get a drink" he asks and I nod my head just wanting to get this over with.
"Sure" I tell him and he nods and opens the door. Walking into the bar behind him, we find a seat and a waitress comes over to us.
"Do you wanna eat now or drink first?" he asks me and I glance at the menu then back to him.
"Drink.. I'll have a double baileys please" I tell the waitress and she nods then looks to Andrew.
"A pint of fosters love" he tells her and she smiles walking away. He looks at me for a moment and tilts his head.
"So, do you go to college or work maybe?" he asks and I shake my head. The awkward part..
"Not yet. What about you?" I ask him not really caring but being polite.
"I go to a sports college" he says and I nod offering him a smile. Great.. I have zero interest in this dude.
"How do you know, Mia?" I ask instead as the waitress comes back with our drinks.
"Through a friend, he set me up on this" he says and I nod understanding. Poor us.
Drinking my drink I feel eyes burning into me so I turn slowly and see no other than Liam himself. Oh god!
He's just standing there staring towards Andrew now, like he's processing in his own head what's happening. I just want to tell him it's not what he thinks and that I only want him.
I only want you. Dammit Liam!
But then he smiles and walks towards the bar. Why do I wanna cry!?
I watch him speak with the bartender and then they exchange something and the bartender looks across at me and nods, but then Liam leaves. No one last look, just walks out. Gone.. Again. Fuck!
I pick my drink back up and down it as the bartender walks over with another bailey's for me. Thanks Liam. Just what I needed.
"When you're ready I'll bring the next one over" he tells me taking my empty glass so I down that one and hand it to him.
"I'm ready, keep them coming" I tell the bartender and he nods walking away.
"Who was that guy watching us?" Andrew asks me and I sigh.
"Someone you don't want to meet" I tell him and he raises his brow.
"That's not really an answer, sweetheart" he says and I cringe inwardly at the pet name and roll my eyes.
"My ex" I tell him and he swallows.
"Oh.. right, he didn't seem to bothered, he kept his distance" he says and I just want to gorge his eyes out with my thumbs. Dont fucking say that! I don't want to hear that!
"Well nevermind, this was a bad idea" I tell him and he sighs.
"Yeah probably when your still hung up on your ex" he says and I stand up.
"Well what can I say.. The heart wants what it wants" I tell him and look to the bartender with my drink downing it and grabbing my purse.
"I'm out" I tell them and walk off. I'm not gonna sit there and listen to him. About he's not bothered. You think I don't fucking already know that. You think that it doesn't hurt. I only want him and he doesnt want me so what's the point. I'll be alone without him. Forever..

***

I walk.. and walk with my bottle of baileys I purchased from the closest shop to me and I can't get Liam off my mind. How he was just watching me, like he had something to say. But he never holds his tongue with me so the fact he's doing that now.. is pissing me off.
I drain the last of the bottle needing something stronger and look around for another shop.
I find one quickly and drop the bottle by the door and walk in with a smile.
"Big bottle of Jack please" I tell the guy behind the counter who's looking straight at my cleavage and smiles when his eyes reach mine.
He grabs the bottle and puts it through the till as I pull cash from my purse.
"Thanks. Keep the change" I tell him grabbing the bottle and walking out cracking the seal.
I swig from the bottle as I continue up the road getting to the field down the pathway and cutting onto the forest where I know there's a bench around somewhere. At least there was.. right?
I swig again feeling the burn seep down my throat when I sway a little imagining Liam in front of me. I blink repeatedly, trying to focus and look again and I'll be dammed.
"Liam" I say tilting my head wondering if I'm just imagining this still. You know.. because I want him and I'm sad.
"Stacey" he suddenly speaks and my mouth goes dry whilst my heart races. Oh my god, oh my god. He's actually here, and he might even talk to me. Oh my god!
My feet are moving towards him and I drop down on the bench way to close but who care because he smells incredible. Spicy and coco but something else that's all him too.. mouthwatering. I offer him the bottle and he sits back and looks at me as he takes it.
"You shouldn't be out here alone baby" he says and my heart melts at his words, his concern but.. he called me baby.. it's been so long.
"I couldn't stay there any longer" I tell him honestly and he hums and swings from the bottle multiple times.
"You was on a date" he states and I sigh dropping my head to his shoulder but his arm comes around me and my body tingles loving the feel of him.
"I didn't want to be. Mia set it up.. again" I say with a bitter undertone and look up to him seeing his jaw clenched and I take the bottle back and swig more hearing him mutter that he can't stand her. Yeah.. I know.
"I wanna smoke" I say to him knowing Liam always has weed and he smiles at me and nods.
"Come with me beautiful, I'm parked up around the corner" he tells me making me smile as he stands and offers me his hand. It just gets better.

***

Afte we'd gotten to Liam's car and I must say it's very nice. To say he's only eighteen he's always had money and cars but that's not what draws me in. It's his mind, his heart and soul is what has always kept me wanting more, his light chocolate skin, them deep brown eyes and god, what swings between his legs turns me inside out and I will never get enough.
"You're staring baby" I hear him say pulling me from my thoughts as I bite down on my bottom lip wanting to continue this fantasy.
"I can't help it if I find you ridiculously hot, baby" I tell him turning in my seat and resparking the spliff I'm holding.
"But I will say, you get more hotter ever time I see you and I'm wondering what the fuck?" I tell him making him chuckle and slowly lick his lips. He looks me over and my body tingles at his heated stare and I clench my thighs needy.
"Don't look at me like that" I tell him because he knows exactly what he's doing, he knows I'm weak for him. It'll always be him.
"Like what?" He asks with a flirty smirk on his lips and I raise my brow at him trying to remain calm. My hearts beating and I'm drunk, high and beyond turned on.
"Like you're ready to devour me" I tell him breathy and he drops his hand to my jean clan thigh over the rips and my body tingles from his touch and I watch as he leans closer to me.
"Who else has touched my treasure?" he growls and I shake my head slowly as I bite my lip.
"It's only yours Liam" I tell him reaching for his face, wanting to touch him and he closes his eyes when I reach him and it slows my racing heart. The feel of him.
"I love you Liam, there is no one else" I say quietly when his lips are suddenly on mine.