Taking The Risk (Risk Series #1) (UNDER MAJOR REVISION)

Chapter 8

Chapter 8

I stared at the bulletin board. Nakapaskil na 'yung grade naming for the first sem.

Bagsak ako.

I tried my best pero bagsak ako. Hindi pa rin 'yon enough.

I slowly walked away from the bulletin board.

I'm such a disappointment na.

Line of seven? Never akong nakatikim ng line of seven, ngayon lang. Kung kailan matanda na ako doon pa ako nakatikim ng line of seven.

Hindi ko naman kasi talaga gusto 'to,e. Hindi talaga 'to 'yung para sa 'kin.

Tahimik lang ako sa klase. Nakikinig lang ako ng todo. Hindi ako makausap ng maayos ni Fiona dahil tulala lang ako at walang imik.

Nag-quiz na naman kami nung araw na 'yon, as usual.

Natapos 'yung classes, dumiretso na kami ni Fiona sa cafeteria.

Fiona held my hand. "It's okay to fail, it's the beginning pa lang naman. Pwede ka pa bumawi. First pa lang naman 'yan, may second pa, may second year pa. Maraming time para bumawi, Lina," she said, her voice was soft. "Don't give up..."

Napatingin ako sa kaniya. I was at verge of crying. But she's right, may time pa naman para makabawi. I just hate myself for not taking it seriously. I can already imagine my parents looking at me with such pity in their faces.

"Thank you for saying those, I'll try my best," I muttered.

"Good, now, you should eat na."

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Naka-upo lang ako mag-isa sa gazebo. Hindi ko alam kung uuwi na ba ako o hindi?

I was just thinking if I should quit. I don't want to be here in the first place. May mararating din ba ako kung nasa law school ako? Pero at least doon ma-r-reach ko 'yung dream ko.

May tumabi sa akin.

I didn't bother throwing a glance at the person. I was just staring out of nowhere.

Why was I even here? How the hell did I get here? Nasaan 'yung sipag na nilaan ko nung nag pre-med ako pati nung sa NMAT? Bakit ngayon pa nawala?

"Hey," anang pamilyar na boses.

Napalingon naman ako. I came back to my senses.

Si Koen 'yon. His hair was a mess, his eyes looked tired.

I gave him a weak smile. "Hey."

"Waka kang kasabay?" tanong n'ya.

Napatango ako.

"Parang ang lungkot mo? Is it because of your grades?" he asked after a quite long silence.

Paano n'ya nalaman 'yung grades ko?

"Y-yeah..."

"You know, it's normal to fail at first," he said and smiled softly. "Med school is hard and it's okay to fail, just do your best next time. You're still adjusting to its difficulty, 'wag ka nang malungkot."

I pursed my lips and slowly nodded.

"Uhm, gusto mo libre kita ng ice cream?"

Napa-angat ako ng tingin at tinignan siya. "Sure ka ba d'yan?" My face brightened up a bit.

He nodded. "Stress eating tayo." He laughed.

Ang bwiset, gusto yata ako patabain.

"How about let's watch a movie after eating ice cream?" I suggested.