Do you see me, the same way I see you? | BEN Drowned x Reader

Chapter 1

                                                                                     ~1 year ago~

The night was still and quiet, so quiet it was almost inhuman with how it bounced off the walls playing like music in the air the silence was... Eerie, it almost scared me. Tired of rolling around in my bed sleeplessly, I grabbed my computer and logged into YouTube, watching a few videos of random things, nothing important really. After half an hour of watching some guy on YouTube make a fool of himself, I got bored. Once again, I grunted clicking out of my idiotic video and logging onto Discord.

Me: 'Hey anyone up?'

I messaged my chat hoping someone was awake to annoy. That's something I love to do, annoy anyone, really doesn't matter who, I don't care. I could have just met you, you could have just told me someone died but once you talk to me or this case text, it wouldn't stop me. Now as you can tell, I'm being a bit selfish or something like that., but its true.

Me: 'I need someone to annoy'

Lilly: 'Girl, you better be lucky,'

Lilly: 'hey'

Me: 'oh thank god, TwT hey!'

Lilly:'what's wrong?'

Me:'nothing really, just bored and unable to sleep -v-'

Lilly: 'LOL, what's new?'

Lilly and I talked for the next few mins laughing at each other, playing around, y'know? It was fun, Lilly was mainly the only one up at this hour, besides me that is. Lilly didn't seem to mind the fact that I was a night owl, stayed up all night, slept all day. I loved her for that. Now given I have never really met these so-called friends of mine, they're just people I met on places like Instagram, Quotev, or Roblox, still, we made each other laugh and that was good enough for us. I was talking to Lilly when literally out of the blue! I got a text

Ben: 'Hello'

Now this was a private message to me I'm pretty well known so I get random texts all the time but there was just something. About this person that seemed off to me.

Me: 'hiya'

Ben: 'HRU?'

It didn't even take him a second to type that... in-fact, he typed HRU so fast it didn't even show that he was typing—

Me: 'Eh I'm fine, HRU?'

Ben: 'I'm great, thanks 4 asking'

Me: 'that's good'

This Ben guy and I talked a bit more, just about random shit, for the most part, I still couldn't shake this feeling that something was off about him...How do I put it?—Talking to him felt like talking to a- what's a good word ugh; I don't know how to put it, talking to him made me feel as if I was being watched, paranoid. It scared me slightly, I hated it, a lot! Seeming as it was really late at night, I had a good reason to leave so I used it.

Me: 'hey imma head to bed now'

Ben: 'Nice talking with you, goodnight Princess'

Me: 'Don't call me that .///.'

Ben: 'You know you love the name Princess~'

Me: 'In your dreams'

Ben: 'yeah yeah yeah, night Princess'

Me: 'night'

Princess—there was something about the way it was implied that was sweet but seductive at the same time, it almost made me blush but I don't know this person so why does it? Never mind I can't waste the rest of my night thinking about this, I need sleep and he's the last thing I need on my mind.

I tossed and turned for what felt like hours, I didn't even fall asleep till I could see the sun start to rise. So only about 2 hours of sleep, that's how much I got; but it's fine I always get that much sleep or less sometimes if I'm lucky more, but only if I'm lucky having insomnia is no fun, especially when you sleep on a very old bed. That creaks under the slightest bit of weight.

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After I woke up I got dressed and ready for another day of hell, my mom yelling at me, my dad being my dad, my bullies being asses; You get the idea right? Well anyways—I headed down the stairs to see my mom talking on the phone, more than likely to one of her friends. I just brushed past her the strong smell of her poppy perfume burned my nose, I winced at the pain of the burn but my mom didn't care to even bat an eye at me, she just kept talking away, I let out a soft sigh grabbed my books and went for the door when-

"Hiya! where are you going?" It was my little brother, he spat the question at me like I forgot something. 'Just great, of course, this is what I need right now, him to come up!' I thought to myself, I could feel my anger well up inside me, I didn't have time for this and he knew that. "To school, you know this" I paused hoping that would be enough, but he just looked at me with those round, coffee brown, twinkling eyes he got them from our dad unlike me I had our moms eyes (Y/C).

"Now, out of the way, please" I spat annoyance filled my voice, it only made him grin to see that he was getting on my nerves, I didn't want him to know he had won but I was going to miss my bus if I didn't move.

"Yeah yeah yeah" His grin now filled his face stretching from ear to ear, I was pissed at how smug he looked but I kept my cool and brushed past him with a loud sigh.

I put my headphones in and blasted some random song and started the walk to the bus stop when I got there I was welcomed by bitch face one and bitch face two. A.K.A Akko and Randy hated me but I hated them more. I just looked at them as they stared at me, walking by not wanting to do this today I. Tried to not be seen but oh god-forbid I can't have one day at school or the bus stop without them saying something.

"well hello fuck-nut" Randy said stepping in front of me so I couldn't walk away Akko stepped behind me so I couldn't turn around and run—Sure they were the class clowns who failed all their tests, but they were smart–esh in their own way everyone is. I felt Akko press up against me her heart slow but heavy her warm breath. Fell on my neck. I blushed I will admit yes I do like Akko but I hate her at the same time I have love-hate feelings for her.

she bent down a whispered in my ear, "You're not going anywhere, there's something that I want to do" I could feel the grin that formed on her face grow as my heart skipped a beat.

Randy smirked, although I felt like they were smiling for two every different reasons. "Well fuck-nut Akko here said she has something in mind to do, I would love to watch but she said no—" he posed turning to walk away looking at me one more time "so have fun shes is not so nice about things" truth be told Akko never really did anything. Just talked and held me down so Randy could through a punch I was scared shacking and Akko could feel that.

She spun me around then kissed me with a harsh yet sweet kiss. I was stunned but melted into it, letting it happen. She pulled away and looked at me grinning once more, only this time I could see her face it didn't spell happy or anything good, no it spells doom. She kissed me once more and once again I just let it happen.

I had liked them since grade school so this was like my dream come true.