Blynd Boi

last day of the summer

Man coach tripping he stay riding me bout everything hit the whole faster if as he got anybody faster on this team to do it i hate how they held me to big T standards since we had similarities i guess skipped little t he played last year this my first year i wanted to play quarterback but since little t cried about it coached said he going place me at halfback this year since i came of peewee a year early and had 2 years more and that little t was moving up next year to our senior squad and he had to show for it this year if he wanted to take Fred's spot Fred's going to high school next year spot pretty much was his if he came back next year tbh i don't see why little t cant be wide receive like he did last year coach knew i hated getting hit and halfbacks was a target on the field along with receivers the quarterback if like the extra man because the o line protect him with their life almost i suggested coach ill play my last year with peewee i didnt wanna risk getting hurt he assured me my position was final our first game was this weekend i played jumparee it wasn't any going back now wantted to quit but my competitive side anit let me with the anger in me coach called 33 blast on set singling little t to hand me the ball up the A gape as the snap is made little t puts in my hands and drops back trying fake a pass i hit the gape so fast i didn't realize face to face with mike our linebacker i dropped my head as i truck right through him with our defensive end on my ass with our cornerback and safety i was corned in no way out i drop my head and smashed our safety causing him to flip a couple times everyone thought i killed him shocking the coach with a spin jump over the corners low blow to the knees and a stiff arm to the defensive end before touching the endzone kicking straight dust coach blows the whistle to end our practice for today giving us time to rest a little school starts in the morning. I was starting 6the little t was starting 7th big T was starting 8th my big sister was starting high school this fall so she was there alone and my little sister fishbone was was left in elementary. By herself starting 3rd grade i hope she can adopt as me and little t made it home big T was already home coming out the shower to boss us around ma paid for big T to play ivy league why me and little t played AAU football alot of us was good in our league but was barely noticed because we anit play on tv like ivy league as big T nags i prepare for a shower so i could eat my food and go to bed i was nervous as fuck i was starting middle school in the morning little t kept bring bout how he played quarterback and i was stuck at half back and receiver big T knew that was backwards to he played halfback and safety himself for the bulls then little t told him how i ran throw jakoby our linebacker big T congratulated me and said to give it a try even the we all knew i threw farther the both my older brothers i told big T why coach wants me to play halfback this year and quarterback next big T starts to joke on little t in a heated debate little t called big T a big nose monkey boy did big T get mad he picked little t up and slammed that boy so hard the whole house shook a lone with that soul piercing scream little t held jumping in place wave his hands back in forwards made me laugh but grab the broom to help little t big T was big and fast i was stupid jus to bring little oh me to the fight well jus not yet my mom swings the front door open yelling domane bring your ass her i drop the broom hoping she anit see me i get to the front door and see she smoking weed with cp and his bm peaches and monique my mom aske what the hell i did in there i tell her nothing then she asks whats wrong with her baby as if little t isn't a year older then me i shake my head she punches me in the shoulder part of my chest asking me the question again causing me to yell i anit do nothing to your cry baby behind son arms and chest stuck out breathe rapidly blowing as i start to feel overwhelmed my mom jumped up them stairs jacking me up for a blind lady her punch landed firm and hard costing me to loose my mind and go into a mental melt down little t finally comes out the kitchen screaming hooping and hollering from that big show slamm big T jus performed on him so nicely made it look easy all of the more reason i had to grab that broom mom stopped whooping on me and grabbed little t shaking him tell him to chill the fuck out acting crazy and shit before he have them crackers at her damn door she then ask him what happened he final muffled up enough energy to sniffle T got mad cause i called him a haitian leaving the big nose part out  my mom calls for big T so he comes round the corner smiling trying give reason for why and jus like that she let the ivy league golden child off the hook like her hitting me like she stupid anit cause me to bow up at her i was sent to the corner to think bout my actions if her beating wasn't enough little t was sent to bed for being a cry baby and not standing up from his self golden boy jus had to give a fake half ass apology for slamming little t like he crazy or something boy was i mad i really start to feel a burden i knew i had to make it for myself my family was selfish and anit pretty much give a fuck bout me i was basically labeled the trouble child everything that happened i cost i hated being the black sheep of the family some of moms friends use to tell me it'll get better stay in school and i would be able to make my own journey its around 12 something at night i fell asleep in the corner without falling coach was right i was light on my feet and had good balance charlse cp father ask why was i up so late i told him mom put me in the corner could he ask her if i could go lay down he said he will try but that shower showed him i finally build enough courage to go ask myself on the 2 knock she yell who the fuck is it causing me to mumble me so quiet i hope for her to to hear i tried my best not to move because we had a wooden floors she calls my name and ask what i was at her door so late for i posed to be sleep its 1:51a.m i tell her i was in fact sleeping but my legs really hurt could i lay down now she holds a mintue then ask wat did i learn i wanted to tell her how much she loved her other kids compared to me i felt neglected and abused daily but i made something up to her likings after bout another 5 minutes questionnaire she told me to go lay down and i had school in the morning it was then 2:00 a.m i told her i anit shower last night she told me stop back talking go lay down before i be back in the corner the rest the night i only got 4 hours of sleep that night if that before my stupid big brother woke me up telling me ma said i needed to shower and we was to eat breakfast at school so i need hurry before we are late