Change Is Not Always Better

Introduction

Love. Sadness. Joy. Peace. Jealousy. Sorrow.. And let us not forget....Change.

A lot has changed in my life as I try to recall everything that had happened. As I looked at people walking around, I nothing has reminded me but pure, bitter change.. I was raised to be a fine young man. But sadly, it didn't go as planned.. My grades were low, I wasn't exactly the best looking guy around town. I was just...Average.

I've made a few friends, But lately, my life hasn't shown much mercy to me. In my elementary years, I was bullied. I was mistreated, I was blamed. Almost everything has happened for six years. No one came to my graduation. Our school celebration for "Parents Appreciation Night" was left unattended from my point of view. And the friends I've trusted my entire life to....Betrayed me..

In all of my life... I have been teased, mistreated, bullied, insulted, blamed, criticized, judged... Name it all. I have suffered so much.. No one I know understands me.. They have no idea how painful this feeling is. They will never change. My pain has, and shall always be, greater than theirs.

They have never experienced what I experienced. And their pain shall never reach the level of my pain.. If the people I trusted never understood me, how much more for the people asking me why I'm always by myself. They can't relate with me.. They'll never be able to relate with me.

If they can't understand me, maybe I'll make them understand. Maybe, when I'll kill off evey singe one of their loved ones, and leave them there to suffer, disabling their ability to walk and move, Maybe....just maybe.....They would understand a little..

Over the years, I have always had the thought of revenge. To make them all suffer for what they have all done. I always had the thought of when the day comes, I shall not hold back and shall show no mercy. I always thought.....of that day..

I have been training day and night, weather it rains or not. Wheather if its snowing or a blizzard, hailing or tsunami..Nothing will get in my way. I WILL have my revenge. I have become     so strong. I became a ruthless, brutal murderer. People that tried to rob me ended up getting their necks broken and their eyes taken out. Sometimes, I would leave them choking. Sometimes, I end it quick. And sometimes.....I enjoy them, and torture them to death. Making sure they feel the pain. Sometimes, I would stab them through their hands, and leave them on the wall. And sometimes, when they haven't bleeded to death....I walk over there...slowly....reaching out my right hand...And physically take his eyes away.

I have always thought of one day, me being able to kill all those who have caused so much pain to me.. "I'll show them who they've really messed with and what they've done. That will be the worst mistake of their lives.. I can gurantee that." I thought everytime I kill people ruthlessly. But now....This is nothing but the mere, vagued past. I have changed my ways. I never had the chance to kill any of them. But I've learned to forgive. The death of my wife has overwhelmed me. It has taken full control of my life.

She was the one who has taught me to change. To forgive. But I just can't do it... The people who stabbed my wife will pay. I cannot forgive them for such an act.. She had died wanting me to be the good person in her eyes. She was forced to slaughter my whole family. And her whole family as well.. As she drew her last breath.. She has told me why she didn't kill me during the harrassment of my entire family. To me...My life was much more precious than anyone else. And I think the same way. Her life was far more precious than any one else's life.

I will kill them. Instead of being that "good" person she wanted me to be, I shall become the total opposite. As silly as It sounds. Call me a child swayed by his emotions. But I shall kill every single one of their loved ones. Then, as I said before, they might understand a little.

They don't know what's coming.