Oneirataxia

3.

"Kai-san" I heard someones voice calling out to me in a distance.

It was a classmate that I knew. He had this soft smile which always looked fake. He always tried to help me out. That thing about him was fake too. Ayagi Mitsu

"Let me walk you home" he said helping me put my things inside my bags. I of course didn't want someone who I didn't even know well to walk me home.

"It's okay, I'll manage by myself" I told him.

"why always the cold shoulder to me?" he scrunched up his nose.

I just blankly stared at him.

"I'm not going to let a pretty girl not have an escort though".

With that he tagged along with me.

We were out in the main gate when I met Yoshida. He looked at Mitsu who was beside and gave me a dissapointed look.

Mitsu looked confused with the environment between Yoshida and I.

"Do you know him?" Mitsu asked me.

I nodded my head to no.

"We do know each other don't we? kai-chan" Yoshida wrapped his one arm around my shoulder.

"You're my classmate, that's as far as it gets" I removed his arm from my body gently.

"Dang, forgot about last night?" he asked. I was confused what did he mean?

"what?" Mitsu looked at both of us.

"yes. what?" I asked Yoshida.

"sex". That was all he said.

"Mitsu can u leave us alone" I said him.

It was only Yoshida and I.

"As far as I know I don't remember having any social contact with you for the past few days" I told him.

"and as far as I know you were behind the vending machine stalking me"

Oh so he noticed me that day?

"You've got a unique smell. I was only guessing but now I'm sure since your face is flustered" he put his arm back in the previous place again.

He looked straight at my eyes. Our face only inches apart. My cheeks were getting warm, it's the same feeling that I had back then, with my encounter with him.

"you're blushing" he pointed out.

"it's the sun" I lied. It was obviously his work.

"you're not hesitating now"

"huh?" I asked.

"my arms are around your shoulder. you're not hesitating".

I quickly moved away after he said that. He looked at me and smiled. That was it. End of me. That little place inside my heart was running wild. My pulse beating faster than ever.

He makes me feel things I've never felt before. and those are all beautiful and exquisite. I've never seen anyone smile like that.

We walked beside each other not speaking a single word, but the silence wasn't awkward. Instead it was comforting. I hadn't felt this in a long time. Not since the only friend I made at the orphanage was adopted and had to move away.

We stopped at the bus stop.

"Where do you live?" he asked.

"just 5 min from here"

"then I'll drop you off" he offered.

I wanted to reject that so bad, but my heart didn't want so. 'you won't let a man control you' I thought about that again. A little doesn't hurt though. Just a little, just for today I want to be beside him.

I nodded my head to yes. It was just for today.

We walked to his car, it was luxurious. He opened the front passenger seat for me.

"get in" he said.

The drive was silent, no one spoke. I wasn't someone who could start a conversation, I was someone who took comfort from silence. but at this point I wanted to talk to him. Know every part of his soul and body.

It started to drizzle, the soft rain noises on the transparent roof of the car.

"you have a nice car" I said.

"I stole it"

I looked at him in surprise.

"your sarcasm sucks" he said.

"no need to point it out I know"

"my dad passed away last year, in a car accident" he started.

"oh"

"I didn't feel any pain, nor I cried, he was a doctor. Always prioritised his patients over everything. that's how he died"

He's had it tough too, I didn't know what I needed to say to comfort him. "I'm sorry to hear that" it was all that came out from my mouth.

"no need to be, we weren't close anyway his death never mattered to me".

I wanted to tell him about my past too, but I feared that he would get disgusted of me and I didn't want to let my past ruin this moment between us.

That was the shortest 10 min I'd ever experienced in my life. It felt like the time ran away from the clock.

"right there, that's my apartment" I told him. He parked his car on the parking lot.

"tell me something about your self too, you seem to have an interesting past" he pulled the car gear down. He was searching for something in his pocket. He pulled out a smoke.

"what's makes you say that?" I asked him, still being amazed by his movements.

"that's comment sense, if you had a normal past you would've had a normal school life but you don't seem to be having one. You don't have any friends and if anyone tries to befriend you, you shove them away" he pulled out a lighter from the box in the car and lighted his cigarette.

The smoke filled the car, nothing new. I'd always smelled it back at the bar. After they were done with using my body, they would light one up.

"I'm an orphan, who was thrown out because the orphanage didn't have enough money to feed everyone" I grabbed my bag tighter hoping that he would judge me because of what I just said.

He didn't speak, his eyes were fixated upon the cigarette in his hand.

"I should get going, thank you for dropping me" I opened the car door to get out. I have never talked about my past to anyone, it's not like I had friends to begin with. He was the first person I eve shared my true feelings with.

"Can I come over?" he asked me. I knew what his intentions would be. He was a hyperlibido after all.

What I needed to say was no, I needed to push him out from my thoughts. But this lingering feeling around my lower abdomen said no. I wanted to taste him. I wanted him to taste me.

He sat there looking at me, his iridescent eyes that looked at me with hunger. I just couldn't deny it.

"sure". That's how the climacteric point in my life began.