Nothing To Lose ||Larry Stylinson

i1

Teaser kind of
Day one
Louis pov

I take a tired sip from my water bottle, it is way too early for thinking. It feels like we've been in this car for hours! Well not really since I have been sleeping most of the ride. And it's only a 2-hour ride. I think we should just go home and go to bed again, it's not going to go well, I can feel it. What if they all hate me and I'm just humiliating myself on TV? Oh god, what if...

"Louis, hey, we are here soon, stop sleeping, honey." My mom interrupts rather loud and I look outside, she was right, the line is already in view, this is really it huh.

"Yeah, okay mom I'm up, I wasn't sleeping anyway." I groan as I sit up straight. I can see people of all genders talking or singing to each other, it makes me jealous, I came here with just my mom. She's the best though so it will be okay. She can always cheer me up and know how I'm feeling when I hardly know it myself, she's my biggest supporter. I love her so much. I know I'm hard to handle with all my, things. And she has it hard too I know, I would love if I could just give her all the love she gives me and be there for her like she is with me.

We are here so I get out pretty quickly being nervous and excited at the same time. But my om is staying in the car and looking straight ahead.

"Mom aren't you coming with me?" Why isn't she getting out of the car? Is she leaving me? Here, all alone, in an unknown place? I can't do that.

I get into the car again before she can even answer, "I'm not going alone you can't just leave me here! I don't even know how to get home!"

She looks at me with a small smile shaking her head, "I'm not going anywhere I'm just wondering where I can park the car, I can't just put it here you know" Oh, yeah that makes much more sense. I feel stupid now, I'm way too nervous about this, it's not that big a thing.

"Yeah okay. I'll just wait here then you can find me after you've parked?" She nods and drives away looking for a parking space. I get in line and start to hum my song. I know the lyrics pretty well it's just singing it while nervous is going to be hard. My voice is normally okay, or good even, but when I'm nervous it's absolute shit. I try calming down by listening to some girls behind me talking about a new dress that's all over the internet. I haven't seen it, obviously, I'm not that much on the internet and I really hate dresses. At least on me.

It's my turn to be on the stage but I have such a hard time thinking. I am actually doing this. Fuck.

"What's your name?" One of the judges says as soon as I get on stage.

"L-Louis Tomlinson." Not now voice, you are supposed to be strong!

I start singing and it goes pretty well, for the first 3 seconds then Simon stops me. Oh no, am I really that bad?

"Can you sing another song? We can't put you on TV with a song we can't play. Copyright sorry." He sounds bored when he says it. But it must be true, why else would he say it? I think for a bit, "yeah I can sing Hey There Delilah?" No, I can't! I haven't practised that one so my voice is going to sound like shit.

"Yeah, that's a good pick let's hear you sing," Louis says.

"OooOh it's whatchu duromi" Oh god this is going to be bad, my voice just totally gave up.