Write Your Own

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This is just nothing. I just wanna write what's in my mind and I'm not good at writing but somehow I got influenced by reading and I'm literally having a scenario or stories inside my head and all of them aren't finish so yeah. I'm not an author and I never considered myself as one (it's true😆 coz this has no cover or even title). It's like I just wrote these notes so that I won't forget it or explanation of what's on my mind . Just don't read this book because I'm telling you, THIS.IS.BORING.

Looking at the dark sky while breathing in the cold air in Han River. I looked at him when he cut off the silence.

"I thought we loved each other that much, guess we got fooled by that stupid love." he sarcastically said.

"I guess we're still okay? I mean after this brea-" he cut me off.

"Of course Jinyoung, but I'm going to leave Korea. I-I mean I'm going to finished my studies in the US and besides I just have 3 more years and I'm done. I was going to t-tell you this but...you know." he hesitantly said.

"Oh..." was all I can say...so he's going to the US? I wanted to know if he has plans on coming back but I can't. Maybe because I'm scared of the possible answer. What if he says no?... but maybe yes?

I really wanted to know.

"I- I...uhm" I stuttered.

"Yes?" he asked curiousity in his eyes never went unnoticed.

"Uh n-nothing.." I said keeping myself shut to ask.

I took a deep breath and looked at him, smiling.
I bring my right hand in front of him.

"So...friends?" I said smiling while feeling my heart shattered into pieces.

I don't even know why. We never loved each other that much, right? That's why we didn't worked out and decided to broke up but of course ended up in a good way. At least we tried.

"Friends." he said smiling while shaking my hand. But his smile didn't reached his eyes.

Or was I just giving myself false hopes?

"So yeah... I'm off I've got to do some stuff." he said.

"Oh yeah yeah u-uhm do you want me to walk you home? I can help you pack your stuffs." I offered him but he refused.

"No need Jinyoungie I already packed. I think there's just few more things but I can handle it." he shake his head.

"Ahuh." I said while looking in front. "When is your flight?" I asked.

"Tomorrow midnight." he replied.

Tomorrow midnight? I wanted to drive him to the airport and see him off but maybe it's better if not. I'm scared that I may change my mind and never let him go. That would be so selfish of me.

"But can you do me a favor for the last time?" he said.

"Of course, wha-" my words got cut off as my eyes widened.

He hugged me.

"This." he muttered quietly.

I closed my eyes as I hug him back, cherishing the last moment with him for the last time. A tear escaped my eyes as he hug me tightly and I did the same. The hug lasted for a while.

I wiped my tears quietly and smile before cutting the hug and faced him.

"Wish you luck. Don't get too hard on yourself, okay? If everything is not fine talk to your friends don't let it eat you I'm sure you'll be having great friends there, right?" I said sincerely.

"Of course thank you Jinyoung. I need you to do the same, okay?" he said and I nodded.

He took a step backwards and turn his back on me, slowly walking away. As he's somewhat twenty steps away from me, he suddenly stops and turn around to face me.

"Park Jinyoung!! Take a really good care of yourself, okay?! Goodbye my friend!!" he shouted waving his hands while chuckling.

I laughed at him but he was so cute doing that. With a small smile plastered on my face, I raised my hand and waved back at him.

"I will don't worry!! And do the same for me, okay?! Study hard but don't overwork yourself!! Im Jaebeom!! Goodbye my friend!!" I shouted back while waving at him as I felt my tears threatening to escape but trying my best to hold it in.

He waved at me once again slowly turning his back on me and this time, completely walking away from me. The tears that I'm trying to hold in was now falling mercilessly. My knees trembled and a moment later I found myself sitting on the ground. I covered my face with my two hands as I sobbed harder. It hurts. It shouldn't be this hurt, right? But why is this hurts so much?

We never loved each other that much, right?

I wiped my tears as I slowly stand up. I took a deep breath once again and looked up the stars in the dark sky. I closed my eyes and feel the cold air blowing onto me. I opened my eyes and started to walk back home...alone.

I never loved him that much. He never loved me that much. We never loved each other that much. So it's easy for me, for us, to move on.... I guess.

See? I told you😒