Happy Birthday Pauline <3

The Day: A Nomin one shot story.

It was the day I decided to confess my feelings for him. The sky was dark, the wind was strong enough to take my worries away. you can hear the thunder and lightning striking above. Was this worth it? It’ll be worth it, it must be. whether he likes me back or not. I smiled as he arrives at the coffee shop.

“Am I late?” I shake my head and smiled at him.
“you’re just in time, Jeno.” he wiggled his eyebrow and seat in front of me. “Nag-order ka na sana,  libre mo ba?” I nodded. “ I ordered for you na, hot choco right?” he thumbs up. as we waited our food he began to speak to me.

“so, anong sasabihin mo sakin? bakit sobrang seryoso naman ito?” I gulped. am I ready to tell him? yeah, I must be ready. I should be ready. Pinaghandaan ko to. I bit my lips as my hands start to tremble. napansin ata iyon ni Jeno kaya hinawakan nya ako sa kamay.

“hey, you okay? bakit ka nanginginig? may sakit ka ba? do you need anything, water?” umiling ako at tinanggal ang kanyang kamay. I take a deep breath telling myself na kaya ko to, sasabihin ko lang na gusto ko siya. it doesn’t matter what the outcome is, basta ang mahalaga masabi ko yung gusto kong sabihin. Tumingin ako ng deretso sa mga mata nya. He look so handsome today, Lagi naman pero ngayon kakaiba.

“Jeno, I li-” I was ready to tell him when his phone ring. he excused as he answered the caller.

I sigh and looked outside. it  looks dull, dark, and sad. well for me. Napatingin ako sa aking kamay, I touched my ring that Jeno gave me on my 21st birthday.  That day was so special for me and petty at the same time. akala ko kasi aamin sya sakin. I was expecting pero no, he just give me a ring kasi wala syang maisip na ireregalo sakin. silly but cute at the same time.

Jeno was excitedly approached me so I was smiling too.

“Bakit ang saya mo? may nangyari ba?” Hinawakan nya ako sa kamay kaya napatayo ako. He hugged me, my heart was beating so fast. my cheeks was burning. Pano to? I was panicking while patting his back.

“Jae.. Meg is pregnant! magiging tatay na ko!” My smile fades as I let go of his embrace. Kasabay din iyon ang malakas na pagbuhos ng ulan. I painfully smile, masaya sya. Kitang-kita sa mukha nya, sino ba naman ako para masaktan pero nasasaktan ako. I was supposed to tell my feelings for him.

“anong gusto mong sabihin? I need to fetch Meg sa hospital, I left her kanina to meet you” umiling ako. natatawa sa sarili ko. I pat his shoulder.

“I just want to tell you na uuwi na kong Korea next month.. that’s it. you can go now Jeno? ah, or should I say Daddy Jeno?” He look surprised but he smile afterwards. ginulo nya ang aking buhok.

“Uwi ka sa kasal ko ha? Hindi pwedeng mawala best man ko dun. ok?” napatigil ako when he mentioned his wedding. Pano ko ba sasabihin na hindi na ako uuwi? Na hindi ako makakapunta sa kasal nya?

Umiling ako at ngumiti sakanya. “oo naman, kelan ba ko nawala? tell Meg congratulations ha? cograts to the both of you” I love you Jeno, mula nung mga bata pa tayo hanggang ngayon.

Pano ko ba sasabihin na kaya ako babalik sa Korea para magpagamot? The Doctor said I have only 12 months to live if I was lucky enough to survive the medication baka aabot pa ko ng 10 taon.

This is also the reason why I planned to tell my feelings to my beloved bestfriend Jeno.

as long as he’s happy, I am happy too. He’s my Strength.
Ang pahinga ko dito sa nakakapagod na mundo.

“Hatid muna kita, tara?” umiling ako at tumawa. “Gago yung order natin! hintayin ko muna. Mauna ka na, hinihintay ka na ni Meg” tsaka ayokong makita mo kong nasasaktan.

We bid goodbye, I wave my hand at him. Tumayo ako at pumunta sa counter.

“Tagal mo naman gumawa nung order namin, nauna na yung iinom” natawa si Mark. “ You did not tell him, do you?” ngumiti ako at umiling.

‘hayaan  mo na, ayokong mawala yung ngiti nya. Salamat. una na ko. see you when I see you” I jokingly salute Mark.

“ Bumalik ka. Babalik ka diba?” I laughed as I shrug my shoulder. Sana.

Tumingin ako sa langit.. Malakas pa rin ang ulan.

“RAIN RAIN GO AWAY, TAKE MY SORROWS AWAY. LITTLE JAEMIN WANTS TO STAY, RAIN RAIN GO AWAY”

I was about to cry when a sudden shake of the grounds occur. lumilindol ba? wow sobrang saya naman. ang malas naman, grabe ka mother earth sak—

“HOY GAGO JAEMIN! GUMISING KA NGA! BINABANGUNGOT KA GAGO” bumangon ako at bumungad sakin ang nakakainis na mukha ni Haechan. putcha naman akala ko pa naman pang-mmk na story ng buhay ko. Panaginip lang pala.