F*cked up and died twice

Prologue

August 2017

"Bullsh*t, stop that I know you're lying" Sofie just told me the news. Our mother died. The day I got my dream job and got all my sh*t together was also the day I had lost the person who was there for me the moment I opened my eyes. How amusing when life hits you like a rock, what's more amusing is that somehow when I heard about my mom, I didn't shed a tear. How odd.

Sofie broke down the news. She was bawling like a baby, while I was just listening to her crying on the other end of the phone. I couldn't bring myself to speak another word. "I see, I'll come back soon Sofie, take care I love you". I dropped the phone and my knees suddenly felt weak and I just sat on the floor. I grabbed pillow desperately finding comfort but the tears still wouldn't drop from my eyes. "WHY?!" I screamed my heart out and suddenly a warm tear was caressing my cheek. 

I cried all night. The pain of losing someone so important was this deadly. It could make me crazy, I cried until there were no more tears left to cry. The next day I booked a flight to New Jersey to see the sleeping beauty who will never wake up.