• title , pairing : beggin' | huang renjun x fem!reader
• description : forgetting about your dignity, lowering down your pride. And humiliating yourself for begging someone to stay loving you, is what i think the most hardest thing to do.
• genre : angst
• note : boyfriend!renjun, self-humiliation, kneeling, break up.
• word count : 308
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Do you know what is the hardest thing to do?
Forgetting about your dignity. Lowering down your pride. And humiliating yourself for begging someone to stay loving you, is what i think the most hardest thing to do.
The night sky were too gloomy, freezing cold wind breezing pass your numbing face after sobbing and sobbing.
Your fingers were still stubbornly clutching tightly on his shirt, tugging the material too desperately to not let him move away from you. “Please. Don't do this to me”
Renjun apologetically glance at you, “I'm so sorry.” he utter before untangling your finger from his clothes.
His soft delicate thumbs stroke the back of your palms, timidly smiling as he gradually let go of your hands, while you shook your head, tears continuesly streaming down your cheeks.
“Why? Can't you just try it again...” You wearily plea, swallowing your guts, orbs locking onto his deep brown ones. “Please?” you whispered, starting to kneel down on one knee, begging him to stay.
“Don't.” He blurt, hand hoisting your figure up, “Don't do this. You know nothing will change even if you beg a thousand times more. You're just making things harder for the both of us.” uttering, he sympathetically brushes your cheeks.
The overflowing emotions were too overwhelming to absorb. Heart beating erratically, pulsating at the back of your ear with every words you never wanted to hear. “Let's now break up."
And you reached your peak. You watch him barge out your shared apartment, door is shutting with thud right in front your face while your legs extremely wobbling in sadness.
You brokedown, kneeling on the hard flooring in midst of silence. Feeling emptier even before he happened.
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a drabble from my impulsive writing drafts.
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