♤𝚃𝚑𝚎𝚒𝚛 𝚕𝚊𝚜𝚝 𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛♤

𝕟𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕟𝕘𝕖𝕕 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕤𝕥𝕒𝕣𝕤

To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.

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I usually don't drink but here I am , having drinks with Dazai...
It wasn't that bad actually, I felt comfortable around him for some reason.
Maybe Im just spending too much time around my family and now I can feel okay with anyone except them.

Music was playing, more people were filling the bar as time passed.
It was a nice atmosphere I never knew I'd like...

-you never told me what happened-

Dazai said looking at me with that same smile.
He said I don't need to tell him?
I don't like venting to people-

-it's nothing really! -
I said taking another sip of my drink
-just family you know -

-something tells me it's more than that, but whatever you want,
However,I personally think it's rather pointless to stress over things such as family fights.
Life is way too short to waste on those-

He raised his glass.
-so, for the begging of something new? -

Yea whatever, as if we're ever gonna meet after this

-for the begging of something new-

sound of the glasses slightly echoed trough the now almost full bar.

I finished my drink when I heard the song that was playing.
I started quietly humming to the words and tapping my fingers to the beat.

-you know this song? -

-hm- yea it's one of my favorites actually-

-it's a pretty nice song, I like it too-

Dazai got up from his chair and held out his hand to me.

-why don't we just dance our worries away, what do you say y/n? -

what- yea no way, my dance moves are same as my love life
✨nonexistent ✨

- I don't really dance-  -

-well there's no fun in just sitting there-
He smiled again
-come on, you only live once after all
why not try it at least-

Well there were a lot of people dancing already, so if I don't move too much no one will even notice im there...
I'm just gonna make an idiot out of myself..
Like I always do
What's even the point of dancing?
It's not gonna make my feelings just vanish that's for sure

Dazai interrupted my taughts and pulled me out of my seat.
He was.. Dragging me out of the bar?
Yea hes probably bored of me already.
Well I must admit
The whole evening with me?
That's a record.

When we got outside I noticed that it was already dark .
Time really does fly..

-why did u-

-I figured, if you don't like dancing,I could show you another place I really like around here.
What do you say? -

-yea whatever, it's not like I have anything better to do-

-wonderful,then follow me -

I followed behind him .
It's true , I don't have anything to do.Besides im probably doing my family a favour by not being around for the whole day.
They are probably out somewhere now.
Without a single worry on their minds.
I wonder if they would care if I just...disappeared one day.

Feeling of the warm night breeze was nice.
Dazai was silent the whole time but he seemed like he was enjoying himself.
I wonder what's on his mind.

-is there something on my face? -
He asked looking at me

-no, why? -

-it must be my beautiful appearance, and you just can't keep your eyes off of it-

his hands were on his face, it looked like he was posing for a photoshoot or something.

-you're really weird you know that? -

-and you are going god knows where with me ,wonder who's really the weird one here-

-I  don't care, might sounds odd but
even if you're just planing to kidnap  or kill me, or if this is just your way of meeting people,
I couldn't care less.
This is probably the most fun I'll get here so why not-
A sight left my lips after I said that.

Dazai immediately stopped walking like something freezed him in place.

-what are you doing?-
I said looking back at him.

-you couldn't care less... About whether your gonna die tonight..? -

-that's what I said isn't it-

In a split second, he was in front of me holding my hands, looking directly in my eyes.

-oh I told you this it the beginning of something new, haven't I? -
He sounded weirdly excited over my lack of will to live
Some people are into that i guess

-what -

-everything is crystal clear now... From the first time we met.. And how we kept running into each other... it's like fate brought us together-

-are you sure ur not drunk or something? -

-it's really happening, I've been waiting my whole life for someone... Someone like you-

Now I just gave up on saying anything
Who knows what he could be on.
Maybe this was a bad idea after all.
I should just try to get out of this.

-yea, so about that, it's late already I have to go-
as I tried to walk away, Dazai grabbed my wrist and pulled me back to him.

-ah trust me, I'm not letting go of something like this that easily-
I shivered at his words. He said it so calmly. What is he planning?
What is wrong with him.
I wasn't scared at the beginning of this but now I couldn't help but feel... Unusual about this.

-so, shall we? -

and just like that ,as if nothing happened, we continued walking to his special place.

well I guess spending time with weird guy is still more fun than being home, right ?
But still... What's with him, is he like this with everyone?
He seemed very interested  after I mentioned that I don't care if I die.
Maybe he's drunk, maybe I'm drunk,who knows

However this is the first day I can actually say I enjoyed after a long time.

Maybe he's right..
We only live once and I might as well just let things go their own way and
see where it gets me...

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A/n: grammar in this chapter probably makes y'all cry, but dw same
This is a shorter chapter because the story is ending soon and I want to leave the best for the last
So ya
Hope you enjoy this mess <3