my rainbow after the storm

Chapter one: Unsuccessful

Faith

In this moment I have never felt more alive. As I stood looking over the edge, the breeze pushing my thick curly locks out of my face I thought to myself is this the right decision? After I make this jump that's it I won't have to suffer anymore and my soul will be at peace. But was there another way? Am I able to have happiness in this life? Is death really the only option? I pushed these thoughts aside as i took one last breath in, bending my knees leaning forward, this is it I thought the moment I've always been destined for. These thoughts quickly leave my mind as I felt a strong embrace from behind pull me back. Looking down I see two large male arms wrapped around my torso. His rings felt like ice on my skin as he pulled me away from the ledge. No this can not be happening I was so close.

"What are you doing? let go of me" I screamed thrusting my arms and legs about trying to free myself. I was unsuccessful as this mans inked arms were the size of both my thighs put together. So many emotions arose in me,  feeling an overwhelming amount of complete anger and disappointment as I knew I was still in this world, I let out a long, painful, loud scream. Again I tried to get myself free from this mans grasp looking down at his large tattooed hands but yet again my attempt to free myself is unsuccessful. I started yelling at him telling him to let go of me in complete fury. I had no idea who this man was but I knew one thing and that is I hated him with all my being.

Zed

What did I just do? I could care less if this girl lived or died I don't even know her name. But as my car crept closer and closer seeing her standing there in her long curly hair moving in the wind for some reason a voice in me told me to pull over and help her. Clearly she wasn't looking for help as she is cussing me out this very moment. I hadn't said anything to her yet I wasn't sure what to say I have never been the type of person to care about anyone let alone comfort them after watching them almost take their life. I mean for god's sake I kill people for a living and have no problem in doing it so why on earth did I just save the woman.

I loosened my grip on her and she stumbled forward. Before i could stop it from happening her hand collided with the side of my face. Okay that's not quite what i was expecting after saving her.

"What the actual fuck" I almost shouted.

"WHY WHY WHY I was so close why did you not just keep driving you don't even know me" she said as she started sobbing.

Truth was I don't know what possessed me to save this obviously not very happy lady.

"What was I supposed to do? Keep driving and live with myself knowing I could of helped?"

"Yes!" She said with a scoff.

"You've got to be fucking kidding me! what kind of psychopath does that?" What am I even saying right now I kill people for a living! I put a bullet in between their eyes and take their life away, and quite easily walk away from that so why did I not just keep driving?

I decided that I shouldn't be arguing with someone who clearly wasn't in a correct state of mind. I didn't want to call the police because what were they going to do send her to a psych ward and load her up with antidepressants. I know that shit doesn't help so that's the only reason I said

"Get in the car"

She crinkled her face in disgust
"No are you fucking kidding me I don't even know you" she replied as she tried to walk away.

I grabbed her arm. 
"You either come with me or I call the police and they take you to a psych ward"

"Are you fucking with me?! Seriously you've got to be kidding, I want to die why is that for hard for people to understand? I hate myself so much! I can't even look in the mirror I am so fucked up. Let me go, let me commit why do you care you don't even know my name!" she said all of that in one breath as if she rehearsed it.

"Look I'm not going to stand her and tell you I understand and that it's all going to be okay because it's not going to be-"

"HA wow thanks" she interrupted before I could even finish.

"If you didn't fucking interrupt I was going to say that life is greater than what you are going through right now, I may not know why you were on the ledge and I may not know your story but I know that I was in the right place at the right time and I'm not going to let you leave without knowing you aren't going to try that again because life is worth living even if you don't see it now in this very moment". WHAT AM I SAYING who do I even think I am saying all this as if I actually cared?

"What is your name" she asked coldly not commenting on anything I had just said.

"Zed and yours?"

"Faith"