It was a beautiful day on the wall with Eren,Mikasa,Annie,Armin,Petra,Connie,and Sasha we where all looking out in the distance seeing titans just wander around stupidly like their normal selfs. On that same day Armin and I got into a little fight with each other over something stupid the reason was Armin saying he was a rebel and acting very weird until i got out 3dmg gear and pointed it at him and Conie like always called Armin a Majestic fucking eagle Mikasa warned me that Armin would fuck me up but i didnt listen. Armin tackled me pointing 3dmg gear at me,but I cut his shirt off with my blade making him really mad so I took his book of the outside that he held deeply close to him and he tries to cut off my arm because of it but Annie wouldnt let him. Here's the weird part I threw a blade at him weakly getting him mad and i never knew how a little guy thats like 6 feet smaller than me pushed me off the wall when I had 3dmg gear on. I fell,fell,fell until i got the grip of the handle and swung myself back on the wall then Eren came along asking whats all going on but we all said nothing and said hey. I told Connie my faith in humanity was still on his back and he didnt care one bit that got me a little sad because marco was somewhere special.....in heaven oh how much I miss him I loved him to dear heart but i promised him i will keep living on without him. Mikasa says to armin 'why are you mad armin'? I jumped off the the wall cause I knew Armin was gonna do somehing bad to me i had that feeling until Connie called me horse face oh i hated him so much for calling me that. When i jumped off the wall i saw a titan so i decided to kill it while Armin and everybody else where talking about problems.........but then Connie suddenly passes out. After Connie decided to pass out I went back on the wall saying hey then everybody else says hi back that made me feel a lot better then what was on my crazy mind. When i saw Mikasa all of a sudden I got a nosebleed and fell off the wall because of how cute she was but Armin decided to push her off then she says 'DAMN U ARMIN......hey jean' when she said hey to me I stuttered and said h-h-h-h-hey back because i was really nervous. So I get really mad at Armin so I kick him off the wall and Mikasa pushes Annie off saying 'TAKE THAT'.... Annie got really mad so she decides to put on her ring that she uses to turn into the female titan everytime and she switches out her hook not even baring to hesitate. Then all of a sudden Armin tackles me in the air because I kicked Annie so her rings gets knocked off of her finger and armin hits me really hard causing a bloody nose. A few minutes later after that Armin retrieves the ring for Annie and Annie uses the hook and slashes her finger turning into the female titan and Armin jumps on Annie's shoulder running off into the distance that little betrayer!. A minute later Annie hits me with her hand knocking me into the air but mikasa quickly makes her go blind knocking armin off I land against Armin having my arms around him then passing out. Later that day Armin wakes up punching me while i cried when passed out cause I couldnt believe what was going on that day i followed Annie and Armin while a tear rolls down my face mikasa asks whats wrong but i dont answer her she keeps asking and asking but i still dont answer. I get right beside Armin and Annie having Annie kick me in my face that really hurt then mikasa asks 'THE HELL ARE YOU DOING JEAN!' then I say 'wait annie...' armin goes crazy then i say 'I'm staying right here!....' mikasa was so shocked because i betrayed her and eren. MIkasa said 'oh god he's teaming with them eren!' but annie wouldnt allow me too but i say 'im not gonna kill u i'm gonna help you!!!' mikasa was mad that she chased me calling me a bastard because i betrayed them but eren changes into titan form but i wouldnt allow that and i cut his nape open he got mad and fell saying 'JEAN WTF'. Annie grabs armin but i sais 'annie wait let me come please!' she actually came and took me i felt safe because i knew i wasnt gonna die by the female titan. Mikasa looked at me crying because i betrayed them the look on her face made my heart hurt reallt bad cause i'm going against a girl i loved. Petra was on the wall just dancing until she fell falling eren saves her though. Later i go to eren saying "go in your titan form and fight me!' but mikasa tells me to get away from him but i dont listen but eren pushes me off the wall but i was smart and hooked onto the wall and i yelled 'EREN TITAN FORM NOW' mikasa got so made that she yelled at me telling me to go away. Seconds later Eren turns into his titan and hits me knocking me into the air while mikasa looks at me saying' why would you do this!' but i land on petra but petra starts to cry because she thinks nobody likes her and starts to bawl. Petra hugs me cause she didnt mean to hurt my feelings and she tried to stop crying. I get up walking to the nearest titan while mikasa was talkign to eren about why would jean betray us while she looks at me she says"now he's commiting suicide' when she said that i dropped my 3dmg gear eren calls me a bitch to mikasa petra crossing her arms pouting i then walked up to a 15 meter titan while mikasa watching while tears roll down her face seeing me walk she said that she couldnt do anything to help me. Then i let the titan grab me really hard tears rolling doen mikasa's face looking away from me saying bye jean crying trying to cover her cries then petra falls off the wall commiting suicide cause she doesnt wwant to live anymore. I cry loudly everybody heard but before the titan killed me annie slashes me outta the titan petra then lands on the ground broken bones arms legs while laying there unconscious i pass out so annie carries me to armin while petra slowly dies. Eren falls off the wall accidently transforming into his titan form but petra was still dying there knowing that her friends wouldnt help her too busy with one another to realize that all she wanted was just a friend but there she was on th eground with a lot of broken bones, slowly dying.....still unconscious her breathing slowly decreasing then a white light apprears in her vision she knew her friends needed me but yet there she is most of her own bones shattered takes last few deep breaths and dies.. I go back into the open letting a titan kick me against the wall while i was badly injured i looked up at mikasa.... Petra entered the gates of heaven hugging all of her friends that she dearly missed she lookes down and whispers'its all going to be alright' i cry loudly saying to mikasa that i was sorry while i continue to cry so i decide to push myself out of the wall and fall, while i was falling i yelled to mikasa im sorry and then poof i hit the ground white light appears mikasa looking down at me tears start to swell up in her eyes then i slowly close my eyes knowing my time was near i said bye in the most quiet way then i die.....i saw a golden gate seeing petra marco olou and everbody else that died, i hugged petra really hard because i died then mikasa appears saying hi jean, petra but i dont speak because i was to sad to speak to her. I see marco i hugged him so tight and i cried saying 'Marco i remember you told me to promise to keep living but i broke that promise'. After that i notice i had the wings of freedom wings and cloak walking next to petra cause she thinks nobody loves her. Petra looked at the land below her knowing that she gave up on it knowing she could of tried but decided to jump off the wall shattering most of her bones she knew that was stupid she committed suicide instead of helping her dear friends she starts to tear up thinking that everybody around her hates her completely ignoring her surroundings. I heard something about soembody telling my mom that i'm dead. I looked over my mom from above noticing she's crying badly swelling cheeks looking at a recent picture of me and the rest of the group in out new uniforms while she's crying she holds it tight to her wishing i didnt die. Then i see mikasa come back from telling eren everything is gonna be alright when i see mikasa i started to cry saying ' mom i love you sorry for being such a angered child and i cry even more. She tells me to stop crying so i try to stop but it was hard knowing i left my mom. i then go down to eren hearign him say ' i give up life,love,fear,humanity,hope,friends,family and more..... i just wanted to live but cant..... WHY DOES THIS WORLD HATE ME ALL I WANTED WAS TO LIVE AND SURVIVE BUT NO TITANS AND PEOPLE HAD TO FUCKING RUIN IT ALL!!! MIKASA! MOM! ARMIN! MY FRIENDS LEFT THIS WORLD BECAUSE LIFE HATED THEM! THEY'RE IN A BETTER WORLD WHILE I'M HERE IN HELL TRYING TO LIVE!!!! Petra still feels down she feels bad that she elft the world being selfish jumping off the wall enough to kill myself!!! she looked down shaking her head i felt really bad for her. Mikasa wishes that she was stronger so she could of saves us all. Later that day i asked petra and mikasa if they wanted to go see eren petra didnt wanna go so only me and mikasa went... We heard eren talking again but this time saying ' I LAY HERE CRYING WHILE MY FRIENDS ARE IN HEAVEN OR HELL! I WANTED TO SAVE YOU GUYD BEFORE YOU GUYS FUCKING DIED ON ME! YOU GUYS ARE CRUEL FOR LEAVING ME HERE ALL ALONE! DARKNESS WILL SOON TAKE ME AWAY AND I WILL NEVER SEE YOU GUYS AGAIN! MY LIFE SUCKS! I JUST WANTED FRIENDS A PLACE TO LIVE BUT NO!!!!!!!!!! FUCK MY LIFE.......WHAT THE HELL WORLD! STOP TAKING MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS AWAY FROM ME!!!!! After hearing eren i decided to say something ' eren im sorry for ever being rude to you i should of never been rude to you i just wanted a rival but no i died i wanted to live and see my mom but no i wanted to be loved i wanted to have kids one day i wanted to be free i wanted to see the outside i wanted to keep living for my family my friends even my enemies i wanted to stay alive to see the future i wanted to be strong i wanted to be a father i wanted to make new friends i wanted to be one of the top soldiers of the scouts but no i died i got kicked by a titan into the wall and fell i'm sorry for betraying you all.... i started to cry while saying that. Then eren goes off saying ' WORLD WHAT HAVE YOU DONE! TAKE ME TO HELL! FUCK ME LATER AND SHUT UP ALREADY! MY FRIENDS....... SHUT UP ALREADY LET ME DIE WORLD!... WHAT HAVE I DONE TO MYSELF! KILL ME ALREADY AND TAKE ME TO HELL! WHY WORLD WHY! JUST LET ME FUCKING DIE ALREADY AND NOT LET ME TALK ABOUT HOW FUCKING BAD YOU ARE!! JEAN ARMIN MIKASA I JUST WANTED TO LIVE AND HAVE PEACE! WE COULDNT HAVE DIED IF IT WASNT FOR THE TITANS AND THE SCOUTS! so eren and annie decided to hold onto the past trying to gain strenth while most of their friends are dead that they loved to dear heart. i tap annie's shoulder crying saying thanks for being a friend it meant a lot to me, annie is responce said ' i'll miss u jean' At the end of that day eren and annie lived together became family because eren lost mikasa his only family left and they lived on to revenge the death of our friends.
