I'll Love You Forever

Chapter one

Previously on I'll Love You For Always

"I got out of the hospital. The first thing that I wanted to know were my kids, the doctors and nurses told me that they were okay and safe. I tried to escape from you, but you were too selfish for me to leave you. I wasn't going to let the kids suffer by your hands. I would fight for them, raised and taught them the rules, steps and directions when you come home. So once you come home, they would go to their rooms and stay inside until you are asleep. That was how the rules were to them. It breaks my heart that I had to raise them like adults and learn how to do things in case of an emergency.

Until you arrived home angry that Amy got an F in her math test, I took the fault, so you didn't hurt her, but you did. Her wails from the cigarettes as Hunter and I bang the doors to stop you. You left the room as I saw her laid motionless and empty. I healed her wounds as she pushed herself into her studies, forgetting the activities with her friends...we had to act like good parents when we visit the schools. Amy and Hunter would just sit down with their faces glue to the books. The teachers said that they behaved well, get good grades and send their works on time.

Relief that the kids will be safe until they said why haven't they talk to their friends. The relief was gone when you gripped my hand, as a warning. I let you do all the talking while I sit there and nod at every word you said. I prayed that they wouldn't see my fear for the kids' sake. After the meeting ended, the kids sat on the table as you step front of them with the belt. They were told to answer when you tell them. You raised them to be statues. There is no smile, no trace of any positive thoughts or feelings. They only smiled to me because I showed them love.

I made them laugh for the first time. As long as I stay alive, I will always protect them. Except I found out that I had cancer. Amy and Hunter were too young to understand that I told them that I would have to go with God. I couldn't bear the thought of leaving them so soon. The chemotherapy was bringing me down. I feell so tired and sick but I have to fight for them. I had to. Amy and Hunter may have known what is heaven, I didn't tell them that we had to die. I told them: because it's normal. It's normal to go and join him. He will ask his people to come and visit him because he needs help. Like when it's raining, they are cleaning up there for others to visit.

But you found out that I had cancer, and took the money away from me. That money was for them, for college and you took that away. I had to make a backup plan in case something happened. I knew that I was going to die, but I wasn't going to leave my kids empty handed. The documents are evidence from you did to me, I throw away the copies and kept the real ones from what the years. The money that you stole from me, I saved as much money from what I left and kept it in a bank account under their name not mines. Because I know that if I die, you and Eylin will have access to it.

After the cancer was gone, I could finally go and take the kids away except while I was with my parents' home, the cancer came back stronger than ever before. My mother was mad at me for marrying you, but I didn't care. I had my two kids beside me to keep going on. You on the other hand, didn't care about anything anymore. I know that my mother would plan for an arrange marriage to the kids with someone like Antonio's son Gabriel. I know his history because he was my ex husband. I refused and planned to have an legal contract that if my kids were to be forced in marriage, they will not.

It took a lot of work from you and my mom, but I did everything for them. They are my kids, I raised them all on my own and no one will take their freedom away. My kids are free to live, to learn and love whom they love. You or anyone else can't take it away. As I find myself in the hospital while my kids are in Puerto Rico, I could see the faces from the doctors and nurses as they would check on me and then leave with no explanation. I knew, no matter how much it hurts me, I was going to die. I don't have much time, so I put everything away in a time capsule that I bought. As the time slowdown, I wrote to my kids so that one day they will have their future away from the control. But I want them to hear my last words before I leave.