looking at the muted TV with unseeing eyes, Louis has been sitting there for the past hour. he is doing nothing, has been doing nothing since he came to stay with Harry few weeks ago. "quarantining together was a big mistake..." he though, looking over to his partner, whom was moving around the house wearing a lavender bathrobe. he was looking for a good spot to do an online interview. Louis misses his family and friends. there was nothing for him in LA. don't get him wrong! he loves the city. he just feels isolated and really lonely. not motivation to do anything. he stupid writing any music for weeks now. harry has been nagging him to go out more. he doesn't get him, always content and moving, whatever the situation. It's an annoying quality of harry. Naill too is a very optimistic person. Unlike Louis, who used to explode in their faces when they try to cheer him up. Liam is a little tamer. "maybe I should face-time him...or Eleanor" she always got him. it's very weird. they broke up ages ago, but they hang out and talk a lot. apparently, ex's can be friends, even if Harry doesn't agree. it's not like he ever complained about meeting harry exs, not that he offered. "agh..."
"Louis...?" green eyes were looking at him from across the room.
"Nothing, I am just bored" he slumped on the couch. "when will you finish..."
"not sure... there is... um technical issues. "
"ok." it wasn't like they are planning to do anything later. they seldomly talk, eat together or engage in any activity. He glanced at the beautiful person in the bathrobe. he knew he loves him, he should love him, but right now he feels nothing. just a familiar presence, no thrill, no attraction or interest. if he said this to anyone, they will call him crazy. "you have Harry Styles!" as some people like to say but to him, he is just Harry. no, he doesn't hate him or anything, he just feels... he does know. "maybe it's the nagging..." he tend to complain to or from Louis A lot. Once upon time Louis was infatuated by him, now he just falls out of love??. maybe it's the se*, they haven't done that in a while. ironically, it's Harry's fault that they aren't doing it, because he doesn't feel like it. it is not like Louis minded. this is the perk of being in an open relationship. they had several problems before but at this point, it was very wise of them to agree on Louis' idea.
"... rescheduled"
"What...?" startled by the man standing beside him holding to the dogs' leashes.
"I said they will reschedule the interview... maybe later today or another day... Jeffry will deal with that" he was already wearing his jogging clothes. "we have to walk the dogs..."
"no, WE don't... " said Louis while sitting down to pet his dogs. "you do it."
"I did! last time..." objected harry, who was putting on his hot pink beanie.
"you aren't wearing that...!" said Louis snatching the ugly colored beanie.
"Heyyy...!" Harry pulled his ugly hat from Louis hand "I'll walk them today, you owe me..."
"just go... and buy groceries... the house is empty" He shouted after the grumbling harry with the parking dogs. "maybe I should hang with Freddie" the last time he saw his son was two weeks ago. the five years old was very shy of him. in his defense, he rarely sees him! he never wanted to be an absentee father. it just happened; his mum would be very disappointed in him.
his phone was ringing relentlessly. Jasper 'his manager' had been calling since morning, he didn't answer once. the rule of be seen publicly to stay relevant doesn't concern Louis.
"nope..." he declined the call.
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Later that night, Louis lied beside the sleeping Harry who kept the tossing and turning. he was annoying Louis again. maybe they should have separate bedrooms! staring at the naked Harry beside him. "he never stops" he told him to figure his issues with his lady therapist, which apparently, he didn't. facetime therapy sessions are useless anyway. "can't continue like that." picking his pillow going to one of the several guest rooms. entering the dusty abandoned room, he didn't like it here. so cold and dirty. they didn't have any cleaners over in the past two months, harry saying they will manage. Louis was never a fan of housework. he helps, sometimes. it's not like anything he does make harry happy. he never is. "maybe I will stay at Briana's..." he thought about his other family. he knew they don't like him, but again after the whole lawsuit and they shared custody of Freddie for years. they come to tolerate him. they even invited harry to dinner. he didn't go but it counts.
"they are playing you..." said his partner when he was invited.
"We are family, you should try to connect with Fred...!" Louis tried several times to trigger harry parental instinct toward Fred, but he is actively avoiding him! he usually very friendly with kids. "not mine though..." he likes Louis' dogs more than his kid and him. anyway, he has given up a long time ago. now he is more concerned about preserving his own relationship with his child. dusting off the bed, caused him to cough. it's dirtier than he expected. "it's the sofa then..."
He went to the living room to the couch. after a long time of lying awake, he checked his phone. 01:04. " I need a drink or a sleeping pill..." going to the kitchen opening the fridge "beer, vodka... why is there a new champagne ???" confused Louis ignored it and took his beer and some cheese crackers. He sat down opening the TV. "politics, corona news..." he moved between channels carelessly. "oh, it's the international execution battle."
Suddenly, he heard a quiet voice Saying "It is loud..."looking towards the living room entrance He saw the tall guy standing there in a honey-colored oversized sweater and blue pajama pants, with wild curls.
"sorry. I was absorbed in this show..." he said apologetically to harry who looked at the screen.
"you mean murder? " He raised an eyebrow at him.
"If you going to nag just leave" Louis don't understands why Harry hates that sport. It's not like he had reason to. Louis has a valid reason and he doesn't hate it.!
"I don't support violence," Harry snatched the controller changing to News.
Even during the band days Harry was never enthusiastic about a near-death fighting between people with special abilities. They used to watch it occasionally and he would whine about it the entire time.
"I didn't mean to be ..."
"What now... " huffed Louis. Harry stepped back. He hesitated a little before saying "are you angry?"
"no ... I have a lot in my mind."
"Jasper had tried to contact you several times. you aren't writing any music or doing any projects... is there anything troubling you?" he put the controller back in Louis' hand. He throw it on the couch feeling angrily, why is his manager talking to Harry?.
Harry stopped talking. he seems unsure of what to say. Louis ignored him lied down on couch turning his back to his partner. He could hear him sighing and moving in the background to the cozy bedroom. he can't figure him out. hell, he can't understand himself anymore. his sisters and Dan were very disappointed with him in their last family hangout. it was online of course, but still a family night. every one of them was acting as if everything is alright. nothing is anymore.
"We are secured... other people had it harder." Dan kept saying every time any of them complained. it's not about THAT. he just couldn't explain it to anyone. even to his friends, partner, or family. he has lost something. when and how. he doesn't know. "fuck it..." he grasped the controller with his mind. He brought it to his hand and Clicked the TV off.
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