I ended it all.
I did it all.
As sensitive as he always is
He was pissed but sad.
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I felt awful,
I felt terrible and careless.
How could I do so?
How couldn't I figure it out sooner ?
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Don't get me wrong,
M not regretting my decision.
I just regret my existence
The one that brings pain to others.
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He said he would never ever
See me as a friend
But as a non reciprocate love.
As a potential life partner.
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I feel bad
And he is pretty good at making me feel so.
I feel relived
That m finally doing what I feel is right to do.
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Love was once there
And as m obsessed with the concept
I'll write about him
So forgive me if m not writing about u for once.
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He was not a universe no..
He was a paradox.
That I tried to solve for so long,
And the tries made me feel overwhelmed.
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When I told him about you
His voice started shaking,
Typical him:
He hid it with a joke and a mere laugh..
How I wish it didn't cross my ear.
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Even tho I told him.
Not for you but for him
He deserves to know
As I appreciate him and respect him.
I trust that he would endure
and that he would be over it soon.
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May this be my last poem about him,
As m meeting him soon
Nd m giving him back his jacket
While he gives me the ring.
I don't know how I can look at him in the eyes
After all the harsh things I said to him last night.
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