The moment of your life, when your eyes felt like popping out, and your heart felt like stabbing it’s self. You must have thought as a cerebral damage too right? Well, everyone did. Everyone feels the chills in their eyes when they realise they left the phone on charging straight for an hour, without switching on the button. Or when you work seventy percent of your precious time working on a project just to realise that you wasted 3 days working on the wrong topic. Well sure it’s because of personal errors, you can even think of it as a joke, but that, my friend, is sadness.
More or less, sadness is all the same, just a difference in its intensity makes it tough for everyone living out there. Let’s be honest for a minute here, everyone has experienced this emotion, whether it was the moment you couldn’t stop sobbing, as you gasped for air to breathe, with your face enveloped in your tear-wet pillow, or it was the time you just stood there with an ache in your heart, looking at your fallen model of a 15 tier card pyramid, which was almost about to finish, but was demolished by a continuous stretch of smooth wind. Everyone has known this emotion very well, infact it could be the only emotion you can identify at an instant.
Shedding a few tears can sometimes be defined as sadness, but it’s not vice versa. Infact sadness actually for me is loosing something or someone you love. That’s the best definition of sadness for me. Change my mind. I’m saying this because just like everyone, I have felt those strains of a tangled heart too. I have lost someone precious too. The jacket I bought from an unknown shop on an ordinary day, turned out to be one of my favourite clothing of all time.
I’ll be honest, I never saw it with that perspective as I see it now, never in a thousand years I imagined that I would sincerely love this jacket. Then the day came, that night with all my friends, atmosphere heated up, the moisture increased, and I made the worst mistake ever, I decided to remove my jacket. Who would have known that I would just forget this action?, who would have known that I would have left it out there until everything was finished?. My heart skipped atleast 2 beats and did a 5000hp jumpstart. I ran as fast as I can back to where I kept it. Only to find out it was being torn to shreds by the dogs.
Sadness might seem a pain in your heart to some, but it actually isn’t. When you lose an eraser which was a companion for a whole semester with you, does make your heart wither away. You never realised how much you felt for the eraser until you lost it. Just imagine, at the end of the day, you pack your things and realise something’s missing, your eraser. The adrenaline rush is so high, you can jump and glance like it’s your normal style. I was trying hard not to cry when I lost my eraser. Who would have thought that this could actually make your heart fatigue. I still miss my eraser. Ok but, if we were to be honest again, we don’t actually bother about these stuff. I mean we do, but not enough. Why is that so? Why do we forget about these things so soon?
It’s because these ‘some-things’ don’t give out the intensity of sadness as compared to ‘some-ones’. If we talk about honest breakups, where you actually leave the person you can’t imagine living without. It hurts just as much as breaking bones in your body, except it is felt by the heart. But why is it so terrible? Why does it make you feel the pain this high? Why don’t we forget it soon just like ‘some-things’? Well if you want to know the answer then here it is. It’s because of time. Yes, time. The time you spent with them is enough to make your heart twist.
The ‘some-one’ has influenced you so much that you can barely stop thinking about them, and that is love. That could be the only difference I can make out between sadness for loosing ‘some-thing’ and sadness for loosing ‘some-one’. It’s not just about any two couples though. Loosing of a family member you love or even loosing your close friends can make your pillow wet with tears. Just like my Jacket or my eraser, it depends all on the amount of time you be with them or the amount of time it took you to have them.
To understand better, you won’t be more upset on a keychain you bought, and lost it on your way home, but you will on the limited edition pack you bought after sacrificing days of effort. So you see, sadness is a bit complex, but not so much, it’s still understandable, until, you have a question in your mind. You must be thinking what question I am talking about, right. Well the question is “What about sadness in disappointment?”.
Well, yes. If you disappointment someone or something, you do feel upset. Kind of difficult to picture what I’m talking about, but I’ll be clear soon. When someone expects something from you, you give it all you got, but still couldn’t deliver what they needed, or sometimes you didn’t mean to do it unless you realise you have hurt someone (or disappointed them by the behaviour they expected from you). Though we can’t live on every one’s expectations, we still feel upset. Why? We haven’t loss something we love, then why do we feel upset?
Actually, you did loose something, and that is your self. Still confused right, ok so just think about your parents, they have put a tremendous amount of effort in your growth and behaviour, still they found you doing things which hurt them, you feel bad. You feel bad because you never intended to do so. You never wanted to let them know that it was you. You picture yourself that I’ll be alright, but no!. You lost to yourself. Same goes with times when you wanted to do something for someone, but unintentionally you overdo it, you think it’ll be fine because you still don’t know what you have overdone, until the other person realises it, here too, you lost to yourself.
Ok so basically, you might have got my point till now, sadness is something you feel when you lose something. But why am I telling you all this. Why so much?, Why did I have to tell you about all kinds of sadness? What is the conclusion of me telling you all this?. Well it’s kind of absurd but I m telling you all this because even though sadness is so cruel on our hearts, it’s the best thing one could have in their life. Shocked!?. It’s the truth. Sadness is an emotion which helps you understand the world properly. Makes you realise your mistakes and also feel sorry about it. Gets you motivated to do better, and the best part is , it makes you and your heart strong. Who does that!?. It’s like sadness is your personal mental and health assistant, more like an ideal parent. And what I have said is less, sadness does more than I can ever write to help you in your life. For me, most important thing sadness does is, it helps you realise how strong love is, how strong happiness is.
To tell you the truth, everyone knows that if you are to be always happy and joyous, you never really feel that emotion, it value decreases, but if you are sad or upset, and happiness kicks in, you realise the worth of this emotion. You respect these emotions more than before. That’s the power of sadness. More you feel it, more you realise what happiness and love is. Cry as much as you can, make your heart lighter than any feather, and let this weightless heart of yours fly happily above and through the clouds in the sky. Embrace sadness more than you embrace love and I can promise that love and happiness are always gonna feel better than you ever felt.
-Murtaza Mustafa.
