Life is short. Enjoy it.
Those were the wise words that my mother told me over and over again no matter how many times I just brushed them off like they were a mere piece of dandruff. I was too young to understand the importance of them; and maybe I'm still too immature to comprehend it. But I know for sure that I understand it way better than I had several years ago.
People whine and cry about how they wish life was simple. Sure. If that's what they want let them have it. I would have wanted the same when I was younger. But after I met Yoongi, my view on life shifted dramatically, and I began to see things in a new light, one I had never experienced before. Once I tasted it, I could not bear to part with it. We humans are creatures of habit. Always proceeding to play out our daily routines, going to bed, and then doing it all again the next day. Over and over until our life comes to an end. But not me. Yoongi has helped with that. He has shown me all the beauties in life and helped me appreciate them no matter what mood I was in.
When I was depressed, he helped
When I was angry, he helped
When I felt hopeless, he helped
When I was happy, he helped
When I was fearful, he helped
No matter the situation, he was always there for me. But not everyone had this kind of lover. People have divorces, breakups, heartbreaks, and everything in between. Whether it's because of a lover, or a business, or even yourself. And it's because of these reasons that people wish their everyday life was simple. Who would you be if life played out perfectly for you everyday? How could you gain wisdom if you had no mistakes or troubles you could learn from. That's the problem. You can't.
Marrying Yoongi was something like a miracle. I would have never guessed such a thing would have come upon me. Sure, we've had our fights and struggles of our own, which is how we have grown closer together and understand each others emotions and thoughts better. Through these arguments, we have discovered new qualities and beliefs within one another, and we have learned how to deal with them. I help him and he helps me. Therefore, we are the perfect match.
We have been together for five years now, and never has one of us threatened to part with the other. Yes, there is still so much more to come. We may not be totally prepared, but we strive to do our best when the time comes. Often, I think back on my mother's words. What they meant to her, what they meant to others, and what they meant to me.
What did they mean? They meant about everything to me.
Most often, these words would come back to me after a particularly bad fight with Yoongi. We would get out of hand sometimes, him yelling at me and me yelling at him. This most often resulted in him locking himself away in his office, and me crying into a pillow on the couch. I would sit there, crunched up in a ball for a second before pondering the situation that had just occurred. With the help of my mother's words, me and Yoongi would discuss what happened about the fight in all seriousness, making sure to let the other one speak and respecting each other's thoughts and opinions. It worked every time. It was just the way me and Yoongi worked.
We had our happy days too. Almost every night, he somehow created spare time for me. I don't how, but he had his ways. I was grateful, nevertheless. The nights mostly ended in tons of laughs and giggles, but occasionally ended with us sharing our troubling thoughts or concerns.
But like I said, it wasn't easy. In fact, it was far from easy. There were points in our relationship where I felt almost like giving up. But I didn't. I knew that things would get better, and that our first meeting had been destiny. Before I had met Yoongi, my life had been complete crap. I was an outcast amongst my friends, I struggled with mental health and battled crippling anxiety and depression. They were the darkest days, no doubt. It had gotten so bad, I had almost considering giving up on my life completely. That's when I met Yoongi. That's when he showed me the light. But he could only do so much, that goes for my mother as well. All in all, it was up to me. And only me. I would have to be the one to make the decision to continue with life's difficulties, or end it all. It was not simple at all. But I knew it was better to experience life than to just throw it all away. Just simply waking up in the morning and breathing is a miracle itself. A lot of people would kill to live just one more day.
What I'm saying is, enjoy life while you still can. Yes, there might be some pretty ugly experiences, but you'll be glad in the long-run that you endured it. If you want to sleep in, sleep in. If you want to eat that piece of cake, eat it. Just don't hold yourself back because you think you're not worth it or you don't deserve it. Be happy no matter how much energy that might take. Because in the end, all you are going to be thinking about is all the good times you had with you and your loved ones.
I'm far from dying. Well, at least of old age. But that doesn't mean I have an excuse to not be happy. I've grown wiser because I've learned from this plus all my other terrible mistakes. If life was simple, we wouldn't get any wiser, wouldn't learn from mistakes, but we would only continue to play out our continuous routines.
Now, I take chances. I'm not afraid to face an intimidating situation head-on. I have Yoongi, and I have past life experiences to help me along the way. As long as I have those two things, I don't see anything that can stop me from achieving my goals.
As I said, meeting Yoongi was destiny. Fate, even. He was my guide through all the tough times. He helped me see the light, helped me appreciate the small things in life.
He's my world
my joy
my light
He's...Yoongi
Never Give Up
(Hey! Hoped this wasn't too bad. It was really just a spur-of-the-moment kind of thing. Thanks for reading! ;) )
- Serendipity
(P.S. requests are open!)
(P.P.S. this story is complete.)
