My Journey To You

Kabanata 1

"Kahit babae pa ito?"

"Huh?" I mumbled as I was in daze by the way their eyes focusing on me. They look curious about my answer.

I sighed "Well, definitely I will date a girl who's smart about numbers? In math".  My throat went dry as they were eyeing each other like they were talking without me knowing.

What have I done? Fuck, I hope they will forget about my answer. This kind of topic is really getting awkward.

We were doing our homework in my friends house. As we talked and laughed, we'd gone by this topic again preparing for our next journey which is college.

Argh, I literally want to vomit just thinking about it. I hate school, I know I'm overreacting this.

"Well?" Sabi ko at tinaas ang ang aking kilay. Wala naman sigurong mali dun diba? I mean they asked me if I can handle myself if sa city na ako mag-aaral and part my ways without them kasi nasanay na ako nanjan sila palagi. Kaya sinabi ko, okay lang pero maghahanap ako ng jowa yung magaling sa math. Jojowain ko kahit babae pa ito.

"Oh my goodness!" Napaiktid ako sa matilis ma sigaw ni chris, kaiban kong bading. "I knew it! You like girls" he stated.

My eyes widened. "What? No way! I said, I'll just do it for the sake of my grades, for me. Para hindi ako babagsak sa math, para may tutulong sa akin, para-"

"Ang dami mong sinsabi dae, don't be so defensive halata naman kasi" Rei said and rolled her eyes. Napangisi naman si Kar sa sinabi ni Rei at dumugtong "Oo nga, straight ka pala sa public ha pero may tinatago ka palang kabadingan jan sa katawan mo." Tumawa ng malakas si Chris sa sinabi ni Kar.

Oh my fucking goodness! Straight nga kasi ako marami na akong naging ex na lalaki. Kaso hindi naman kami nagtatagal kasi hinihiwalayan ko ka agad, 1 month or 2 months lang kasi yung kaya ko sa relasyon o di kaya days lang. Funny right? But it's the truth and I won't deny that, hindi ko nga alam bakit ganito ako eh pero madali kasi akong napapagod at nagsasawa, wala pa kasi akong nakikitang lalaki na ma iinlove ako yung deep ba na handa akong mag dive kahit hindi na ako makabalik, hindi na ako maka ahon. I thought to myself sometimes na baka nag e-explore palang ako. Not in dirty way okay? but something inside me na kailangan kong malaman ang ibat-ibang pamamaraan ng mga lalaki kung paano nila i-treat or handle ang mga babae. Ugh, I hate myself for that.

"Dito lang ba kayo mag co-college?" I asked.

"Yep, we already planned about this lory." Grace said and heavy a deep sigh. She looks sad, kagaya ko nasanay na syang lagi kaming kasama since high school na kasi kaming mag kaklase so basically mga 6 years na kaming magkakaibigan . But I need to move forward and experience new environment and new things. Ako lang kasi ang hindi kasama sa plano nilang mag pa enroll sa Cebu South College. Maaga akong naka pa enroll sa La fallio University kaya wala na talagang bawian.

"La fillio University is very dangerous for you lory hindi mo kaya roon, kasi nga diba bobo ka?" Chris joked, and they all laugh their asses off. Napasimangot naman ako.

"Alam mo kung hindi lang kita kaiban baka pinaglamayan kana ngayon bakla at nagkakape na ako." He stared at me at tinaas nya ang kanyang middile finger. "Excuse me lory? Alam kong bakla ako pero alam di namin na mas bakla kapa HAHAHAHAHA." Yawang bakla talaga oh.

"Lory wag kana kasing mag deny pa, alam mo hindi ka naman namin i-jujudge susuportahan ka namin kahit maging unggoy kapa dzae gora kami. Pero hindi ka namin pipilitin okay? Lumabas ka kahit matagal pa iyan. Just remember nandito lang kami." Pa cheer ni rei. That was sweet of her. But I Just ignore what she said kasi straight naman kasi talaga ako.