ashton irwin imagines

eight (accepting)

I walked over to him, a small smile playing on my lips despite the tear rolling down my cheek.

I always smile when I look at him, who doesn't? His dirty blonde hair whipped around in the wind, his eyes hidden behind his sunglasses.

I took a deep breath and slowly let it out, ready for whatever was about to happen.

"You're really happy, aren't you?" I broke the silence.

He looked down towards his shoes "I... Kind of"

"What do you mean?" I shot him a questioning glance.

"I don't want you to be upset, babe" He looked back up. Noticing the fresh tears rolling down my face, he raised his hand to my face and gently wiped them away.

"I'm obviously going to be, what do you expect?" I said a little too harshly "I'm sorry, I just... I don't know what to do"

"Don't say that" He pulled me into his warm embrace. The embrace that has held me whenever i felt upset, alone, angry, confused. He has always been there for me.

"Don't leave me" I whispered into his chest

"I'm not" His voice cracked "I will never, ever leave you. I love you so fucking much"

I looked up into his eyes as he continued

"Without you, I would be nothing. I wouldn't be enjoying my life, I wouldn't be doing the thing i love, I wouldn't have met the people i have, I wouldn't be... me"

"I feel the exact same way about you" I smiled

"Just because I might be doing different things, doesn't mean i adore you any less than i always have" He held me tighter, if possible "You say you don't want me to leave you, I would be shattered if you left me"

"I would never leave you" I shook my head

"I would never leave you" He replied, tilting my head up with his index finger

I looked him straight in the eye, the beautiful hazel colour putting me in a trance as usual "I'm happy as long as you are happy"

"You mean that?" His eyes sparkled in the sunlight

"I do. I really, really do"

I saw her running towards us, stopping just behind him. He looked over his shoulder, then back down at me "I love you. So, so much. More than you could ever imagine"

"I love you too, Ashton"

He then let go of me, but the warmth still remained. He walked over to her and intertwined their fingers. They started to walk away.

I just stood there and watched. They laughed, they smiled. I didn't feel sad. Truthfully, I felt a little pang of jealousy. But i just thought something to myself, and I instantly felt better...

Ashton is happy, be happy for him. He loves you, and always will

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hi guys,

i hope you guys liked this. it was kind of my way of coming to terms with the whole ashton drama at the moment. if you are unfamiliar with it, its pretty simple. he has a girlfriend.

at first, i was so pissed. i was a mix of emotions and opinions.

but i realised today, i just need to be happy for him. i know he loves me, he loves all of us. just because he is in a relationship doesn't change anything.

the last line of this story, that was in bold and italic, remember it. if you feel sad, remember it. if you feel angry, jealous... i dont know. just remember it

see u guys next update :)